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Consider this a no-reserve auction. Whoever bids highest will receive this splendid Jourdaniana graft (on PC rootstock). All proceeds will be donated to offset the costs of Corroboree website/forum maintenance. Auction is open for bids until the end of next week (April 18). Please indicate below how much you're willing to pay for this fine specimen. * Flower is indicative only, from a comparable grafted specimen. Props to Trip for the mother of all scions!

$150 - For an absolutely awesome cause. It might go up depending on what i can scrounge up 😝 (hope that's OK if I double post..) absolute beauty

Congratulations and thanks to misteek, thanks also to Starward and Trip and everyone else who supported this.

Just pay postage or pickup Sydney. Let me know if you have anything for trade (not compulsory happy to send for just postage cost). No cacti pls, Unless you think I really need it. Interested in aya vines that are not cielo, psychotrias and other cool things. 🙂

i grow cacti since a long time, and have seen a lot of specimens... now that i'm older, i have reduced my ethno workload a lot. i got 3 specimens of giant lophs, which are kept that, only those 3 pollinate each other. once i saw a pic, from the us, which showed super giants (behind the strong steel cage!!), but i never saw them anywhere else. if you are interested in peyote giants, follow this thread. i will have seeds, and grafted ones available. i got no financial motives, just spreading the "giants". the originaly came up from khorens seed.

Hi fine SAB folks. I do not get much time for writing but i did recently finish something many here might be interested in. Thanks to the SAB and EGA crew that help me on this also, full list of credits in the acknowledgement page for the article. It is a three-part series on Melbourne's Forgotten Psychedelic Era, we explore the city’s key role in the early days of psychedelic-assisted therapy, focusing on its historical and cultural context. I hope you enjoy it. Click on the titles below to access each part of the series. Part One: The Rise of Psychedelic Therapy The first section explores the initial optimism surrounding the use of psychedelics in therapy. Melbourne's Newhaven Private Hospital became a hub for this experimental approach, led by psychiatrists like Dr. Lance Howard Whitaker. The section highlights how these substances were seen as revolutionary tools for understanding and treating mental illnesses. It introduces key figures such as Albert Hofmann, who discovered LSD, and Dr. Stanislav Grof, a pioneer in psychedelic psychotherapy. However, as the substances gained popularity, societal and governmental backlash grew, leading to increasing regulation and eventual prohibition. Part Two: Personal Stories and Transformative Potential In Part Two of our recent series on Melbourne's Forgotten Psychedelic Era, we delve into the personal experiences of individuals like Evelyn Harrison, who underwent psilocybin-assisted therapy at Newhaven Private Hospital. Under the care of Dr. William Richards, Evelyn’s journey from severe postnatal depression to personal empowerment highlights the profound impact psilocybin-assisted psychotherapy can have when all the essential elements are in place. Dr. Howard Whitaker is also discussed in relation to Melbourne's first psychedelic trial at Newhaven. Evelyn’s story is a cornerstone of the article, offering a unique glimpse into the transformative potential of psychedelics and providing a rich perspective on Melbourne's psychedelic history. Part Three: The Dark Side and Lessons Learned In the final chapter of our series on Melbourne's Forgotten Psychedelic Era, we delve into the darker aspects of this period, focusing on the involvement of The Family cult. Led by Anne Hamilton-Byrne, the cult infiltrated Newhaven Private Hospital, using LSD to manipulate and control its members. This misuse of psychedelics significantly contributed to the fear and mistrust that eventually led to the prohibition of these substances. This concluding section also reflects on the ethical failures of the era's psychiatric practices, underscoring the importance of learning from these past mistakes as Australia navigates its current psychedelic renaissance. The article explores how these historical events continue to shape modern attitudes toward psychedelic therapy and the need for rigorous ethical standards in contemporary research. I hope you enjoy the articles 😃

It is well established that psychedelic substances do occasion mystical experiences, and they continue to be used for religious and spiritual reasons. Despite the link between psychedelics and spirituality, there seems to be little follow-up in regard to the long-term changes in regards to specific religious and spiritual practices that psychedelic mystical experiences instigate and maintain. My questions to you are: How have psychedelics altered your religious and/or spiritual practice, and if so, where has it led you? Did psychedelics reinforce your existing believes or did psychedelics cause a major redirection in your religious and/or spiritual practice? My journey started by being raised in the Seventh Day Adventist Church, an experience completely devoid of any notion of a direct ecstatic experience of the divine. Interestingly enough, my first true transformative experience was through participation in a Voodoo ritual complete with animal sacrifice and fire worship, where for the first time I experienced a trance-like state akin to spirit possession. The next was a physical ordeal as part of martial arts practice tied to Shinto and Buddhist practices; over a period of several hours of rhythmic group vocalization under physical stress, I transcended my body, becoming an energetic wave. However, the mainstay of my everyday personal religious life was Soto Zen Buddhism; however, this was a more gradual transformative practice. It was only when I sought out psychedelics to address questions that had remained unanswered that I came to realize that I have always sought those experiences hinted at but that institutionalized religion could never provide: a direct becoming of existence, a non-dualism of Being. My exposure to psychedelics, admittedly later in life, has radically fractured and transformed the quality of my religious feeling and sentiment; it could not have been more distinct. It has transformed my own understanding of what it means to live and instigated within me a deep appreciation for the profundity contained within millennia of classical religious wisdom and practice. Through a process of serendipity and synchronicity, I am now able to draw upon a classical lineage of teachers that ensures me with "corrective thought" while providing me a scaffolding for a sustaining a burgeoning spirituality sustained beyond the transient well spring of psychedelics.

A heavily biomedical psychopharmacologist was once asked what would he say the best antidepressant was and it was "to go out and find someone to help". I'd agree that the multifaceted behavioural activation towards something valued and greater than one's self is a vital ingredient to escape the woe. Doesn't have to be changing the world but just something small and simple that induces the sense that "it was a good day that mattered" is a nice start. I could list ad infinitum potential antidepressants, which you could try and see if they work but in reality that's where I'd start. I find novelty is an important dopamine effluxer so find novel things to do. Exercise, diet as mainstays. Here's a list of potential nutritional etc options https://1drv.ms/x/c/a157359194a53c21/ESE8pZSRNVcggKF-CgAAAAABlsQ51KStyjW4ly8V9_-FlQ?e=IIMmSg&nav=MTVfezAwMDAwMDAwLTAwMDEtMDAwMC0wMDAwLTAwMDAwMDAwMDAwMH0 that could be coupled with such.

$50 - In the spirit of getting the ball rolling.

Hi, I am downsizing my collection of 300 plus Trichocereus mostly Bridgesii, some Pachanoi, as I have way too many to effectively care for and I am running out of space. My aim is to downsize and to re-home 100's of plants; therefore, I am GIVING THESE AWAY just as long as you cover postage cost OR pick up by arrangements in Gippsland, Victoria I will start posting photos of lots of cacti that would be of interest to people. So follow along and message now.

Alchemia is smart. Listen to Alchemia. But in addition, the lock and key analogy is also works in the sense that a lock must be opened by a key. After this, you need to stretch the analogy somewhat. So if these molecules are the keys, consider that some of these molecules are large keyrings with multiple keys on them. They can unlock several locks. But because I like straining analogies beyond their useful limit, imagine that the keys have another property; variance. Some keys don't work very well. Perhaps they were poorly made and only fit some of the locks of a certain type rather than all of the ones of that type. Now, imagine that these locks can only be opened whilst the key is in them and they automatically lock when the key is removed. But some of the keys are "stickier" than others and are harder to remove from locks. Now you've got molecules that can release many different neurotransmitters in different quantities for varying periods of time. Each of these neurotransmitters has a different effect depending on amount released, duration and how they are combined with other neurotransmitters. They all cause a cascade of release of other neurotransmitters and enzymes too. This results in significant variation in experience between molecules and even when taking the same substance.

So in the spirit of sharing the love the next person who wants an assorted cactii parcel from starward let us both know and i'll give him/her/they the $50

I'm struggling to imagine what it would be like to have this

Largest Cubensis I have ever found this week has been amazing

https://russellbroadbent.com.au/australiansdemandanswers/ Some distinguished co-signatories in this parliamentary letter to Albo, calling for an immediate suspension of mRNA vaccine deployments in Oz, pending precautionary investigation of synthetic DNA contamination claims. Just saying.

It would be nice to see some folks from here submit something, Poetry and artworks are also fine and can be done via the submissions page.

Unwanted gifts, mainly concerned with economic/legal/drugs policy in Africa. Could be of interest to someone here? Let me know.

This article gives three (or four) possible explanations (including deliberate user - not dealer - contamination): https://www.vox.com/science-and-health/2018/5/4/17307296/cocaine-opioid-crisis-fentanyl-overdose. A fuller explanation would be ... "all of the above." The following sentence reminded me of SayN's comment: In other words, accidental contamination seems probable, as the EPA seems to be aware: https://www.epa.gov/sciencematters/remediation-fentanyl-contaminated-indoor-environments. Alas, with great power (or potency) comes great responsibility.

you rise some very valid points. so, if one of the docs that worked at the surgery before, wrote down, "muscle pain" than thats it, even if you say, "it has to do with food" or the scans said " your lower verts are vacummed. asking for painkillers, unless you had an operation is a red flag for them, and you will get stigmatised. i complained once to a male triage nurse, and he run a vendetta against me, and i did not get a proper treatment. i am prescribed 400mg ibubrofene and i use this as an anty inflamatory, so for periodes one or two a day for a week or so, when telling this do the doc which filled in, he refused to writte me another script, for ibuprofene!! most doctors and the media are extreemly deluded, they think street drugs make addicted, and prescription drugs don't!!! if you say to them, i got hooked on the anti depressant, and have to increase dosage, they say it doesn't matter this drug is good for you. as a shaman i realised the ssri's are not good for me, and now the most modern research claims, ssri's don't fix depression and the benefits were overstated and the side effects ignored. i took once occasional a anti depressant/ anti psyhotic which name now escapes me, when i said to my doc, this makes me suicidal in a way i never experienced before, he said double your dose, what an idiot. i stopped taking it, and never had this feeling ever again. a friend of mine suicided whilst taken this pill.... doc's prescribe those drugs even to alcoholics, all though it very bad to mix them. one time, my diverticulits pain was soo bad, i took 2 oxicontin which i had left after an operation, they only masked the pain, and helped not much... i am lucky i am a shaman, and i can treat my issues at times with herbs. the other thing is to accept things for how they are.

Hey SAB folks This year, EGA is celebrating 20 years of community activism and education in the area of ethnobotanicals with a special anniversary journal. We invite you to share your ethnobotanical and psychedelic knowledge with the Entheogenesis Australis community and beyond! Entheogenesis Australis (EGA) hosts one of the world's longest continuously running and volunteer-led ethnobotanical conferences, spanning two decades. Since 2007, the EGA Journal has been Australia's only regular ethnobotanical Journal, a highly respected publication that normally accompanies major EGA events. This year, for our 20th anniversary, we are releasing a special journal celebrating Australian ethnobotany. All past EGA presenters and authors are invited to contribute, and for the first time, we are also accepting submissions from the public. We love to see folks from this community make a Submission 😃 For More Info Click Here

At present I am learning to make music. Feel free to check out my stuff! https://www.bandlab.com/polejam11 Thank you

Topic is broad, from growing, importing, distributing, to lobbying, campaigning, anything short of kidnapping and torture. The parlous state of affairs in Oz is beyond woeful -- and beggars belief. I have gardening-related nerve pain, no income, no income support, no access to GP or their Big Pharma opiod prescription racket. One can petition the TGA for changes to kratom's legal status, but the gatekeeping is all done with toxicology and other requirements. I can make a credible humanistic and even medical argument in favour of de-scheduling, but the laboratory/scientific stuff is well beyond me. Who else feels the need to take formal action to make kratom freely available to Australian sufferers of chronic and acute pain? Please PM or post below if you're interested in taking action.

Hello everyone, It has been a long time between posts. This might seem like a bit of a weird way to reintroduce myself to the forums, but I am on somewhat of a journey to understand a recent experience I had with a UFO. I say UFO, although this was the culmination of a period of 'experiences' that included dreams with a very tangible essence to them, UFO sightings, and recalled memories. This period ended with a sighting in Colac in Victoria at my mum and dad's. I was locking up the shed at approximately 6:30-6:45 at night; it was just past dusk when, standing at my car, I looked up and saw two lights next to each other—not too dissimilar to the collision lights of a plane's wings. Watching it, the two lights (one white, one blue) grew brighter and brighter and joined to become one larger, orange, golden-tinted light. It reached its peak brightness, dimmed down to become the two lights again, and faded completely, leaving me unable to see it anymore. I checked flight radar, but nothing was logged. I know some planes fly without transponders, but it was a quiet night, and this thing was silent. The night was still, and there was minimal atmospheric noise such as traffic, wind, etc. Stranger still was how I felt in the preceding days and weeks. It felt like a genuine mystical experience. I felt as though I had been through the most profound and pure mushroom experience of my life, mixed with the euphoria of MDMA. I felt connected to EVERYTHING. I was (and am still) so grateful for my life. Researching UFO experiences, I've learned that people often report feelings of elation. Naturally, this led me down a rabbit hole of podcasts, interviews with researchers, experiencers, investigative journalists, etc. The rabbit hole goes deep. It led me to the audiobook of DMT: The Spirit Molecule by Dr. Rick Strassman. Rick speculates about the possible connection between the UFO phenomenon and the experiences reported by the study participants. Although he was unfamiliar with the phenomenon at the time, he says that having prior knowledge may have helped contextualize the experiences of the participants. He references John E. Mack, who worked with abductees. John’s work in particular with the witnesses of the Ariel School event is worth exploring, even for the die-hard skeptic. I love Ricks writing style and many of his theories and insights into this molecule really resonate. I'm waiting on his book DMT and the Soul of Prophecy. Maybe it's nothing but his idea of theoneurology, to me, feels like it's right on the money. I'm excited to read it. Having my own experience, I find it interesting that it has brought me back into the fold of psychedelics—those plants and fungi that initially helped me develop my sense of spirituality and my place in the cosmos. I was always of the attitude that DMT would find me when I was ready. But now I think I'm ready to take the initiative and explore what this molecule has to offer me, with the hope that I might be able to learn more about these experiences, why I'm having them, and if there is indeed an extraterrestrial aspect to them. So that is more or less why I'm here: a rekindling of my interest in psychedelics as tools for spiritual development and personal growth. I'm wondering how I would go about finding an Ayahuasquero in Australia, or a shaman who works with plant medicine? I thought this would be a good place to start, perhaps someone here can point me in the right direction in terms of websites, communities. When's the next Entheogenisis conference? I do understand that there might be a concern for the mods here that I am essentially asking for guidance on finding a medicine who's legal status in this country is still a work in progress so please, let me know and I'll edit it out asap. I'm happy to answer any questions about any of my experiences. To be honest I'm still in the midst of processing it all and integrating it all. Which again is where I think I might find some assistance in Aya. It's good to see this little community still ticking along 🙏

i'm now 63, learned guitar since i was 14, making music is the single best thing which ever happend to me. i'm lucky, to found again, a person to play with, he plays intuitive lead on the banjo, i play rhythem on my gypsy guitar.

Thanks for your responses guys The Panadol thing is pretty standard as far as I'm aware. Might as well call it Coke Zero with how badly most people are getting ripped off. Boric acid and other things have been used, which could cause testicular atrophy. All in the name of $ Using Mortein on cannabis crops is moronic, but at least it make senses in a cause-and-effect sort of way to someone who doesn't care about quality or know much about horticulture. Maybe cutting was a misnomer, I'm just genuinely puzzled how high potency opioids are contaminating a plethora of other recreational drugs the world over. I was just curious if this is a systematic thing that groups of people are doing for a specific purposes or just bad quality control with dealers mixing up cocaine and fentanyl on the same table with same razor type of thing. Part of me thinks there is more to the picture

Forever lurking Re: that article and the dude from Honolulu. Frankly, i'm not sure it is a venue's responsibility to carry naloxone and have to train staff in its use for people illegally consuming drugs in their venue. This sounds like a huge liability all round and certainly not something you'd sign up for as (an underpaid) hospitality worker. So much could go wrong. Then again i'm one for personal reponsibility...

My Anadenanthera peregrina.

I should have yopo seeds late spring. my one is outdoors in the ground and can handle cool winters. I live on the northern rivers, NSW.

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peregrina would be yopo, i never heard of it growing in oz. vilca is very common, grows fast in a big tree. i seriously doubt, it can be grown successfully in a pot and get seeds. vilca started producing seeds after 4 years or so, but it grew so big i had to cull it, it was too much work and took over too much space, and my place is big.... borers attacked the seed pods, so sometimes most pods did not produce. if i were you, i would guerilla farm this tree.

I live way further south and will have to grow in a pot. I do not expect seeds, I just want to grow the tree. Maybe it will survive maybe it will not. Maybe I can acclimate it and maybe one day it can be in the ground. Maybe.

Hi fellow plant peeps, I'm looking for seed of silene undulata, capensis, aka the African dream herb. Can swop for fresh seed of Hemia salicifolia the sun opener, sun catcher, from my own plants growing in my garden. I'm in New Zealand so may be limited to trades within this country if anyone here still has any. Thanks in advance.

The smell of limonene could be sufficient to induce synergistic effects: https://www.researchgate.net/publication/274641213_Physiological_and_psychological_effects_of_olfactory_stimulation_with_D-Limonene The use of essential oils and incense is well-known. Rätsch has a section on incense in his psychedelics encyclopaedia. I've come across Syrian Rue in a Persian incense (with other spices and resins), probably for good reason. Brugmansia blossoms are said to be psychoactive, with caution advised.

Subs are quite hard to grow in this climate (qld) I plan on buying a climate controlled box, but cubensis might be the simpler way to go. Or even Panaeolus cyanescens (meanies).

Its time to stock up before the Nanny country makes these impossible to get. They are less harmful than alcohol unless you're a nangaholic. Too much of anything is bad. A few people spoil it for the rest as usual.

https://www.theguardian.com/australia-news/2024/feb/11/a-raft-of-unanswered-questions-remain-as-australias-first-psychedelic-therapy-clinic-opens You've no idea how fucking furious I am at Mind Medicine Australia, the TGA, et al. In a SMH article today, the doctors are gloating that they've got the pure MDMA, the implication being, they're fine with ravers dying from impure ecstasy - "we've got the pure stuff, and we're not sharing" - there has to be some kind of organised revolt against the monopolisation of psychedelic experience. MMA has even roped in Gabor Mate as one of its course instructors, wallowing as they are in $15M of taxpayers' money, and laughing all the way to the bank. Absolutely fucking obscene.

Makes total sense from a Western perspective but it is actually a nonstarter despite the very rational sanity that exists in your suggestion. For the vastly largest part NAC members do not view or use mescaline or mescaline containing plants as their sacrament. They use peyote. That might sound like I am merely splitting hairs but San Pedro has different effects, a different taste and a different personality. This is a religious activity for them and it is not regarded to be a drug experience. For you and me such substitution would no doubt pose no problem as Western reductionism is valid in Western ideology. This subject goes far beyond what we are talking about there as a rather large portion of the NAC is still strongly opposed to cultivation even if done within the NAC itself due to their belief that it shows a lack of faith in the ability of the peyote to protect itself. Instead harvesting for users north of the border increased in Mexico. Thankfully this is now slowly in the process of changing or at least NAC people who do not object to cultivation have openly begun cultivation activities as of 7-8 years ago. It has been going on quietly for some time but I also know of one chapter which stopped growing around 12 years ago when their supplier threatened to cut them off of their peyote supply if they did not cease cultivating peyote. Cultivation within the NAC would likely be much more widespread if not for the pressure against it that became very vocal in the early 1990s. This is all an internal matter for the NAC to work through and resolve as no outsiders have the right or the wisdom to tell other people how to practice their religion. Spokespeople from the NAC have repeatedly stated to legislators and to the press that mescaline is not their medicine and San Pedro is not their medicine so have boxed themselves into a corner should their minds someday change. Only in the last several years have we heard claim being laid over them and that has been entirely in the context of decrim efforts and a desire to keep mescaline from being decriminalized. There has been a lot of effort directed at keeping not just peyote but mescaline out of DN proposals. It has in a growing number of cases been successful in omitting mescaline and any mescaline containing cacti and in others has only kept peyote and mescaline derived from peyote excluded. In far fewer instances peyote HAS been included in the decriminalization initiatives that were passed. One more bit of subtlety is that *only* the 'nondrug use' of peyote is viewed by DEA as having protection. Not only is there no guarantee that respect would be extended to the NAC for using other mescaline containing cacti or mescaline but since that would be based on recognizing they the same active drug, and therefore are drug use, it might actually go against them. Saying "peyote is not a drug" is more than just words for them, in DEA's eyes it is their legal defence for being able to use it in ceremony. One element to bear in mind is the NAC is not a homogenous organization in thought or beliefs. It is actually not an organization. It is a loose affiliation of around 170 chapters; each of which have their own charter and can write their own bylaws and membership rules. Most of them are formally incorporated. Many are fundamentalist Christians, some still have their original religion and are not Christianized and many are somewhere in between. Similarly many chapters strictly preclude others from participating (65 or so percent) and others welcome anyone who is sincere. This is easily missed if hearing the most vocal rhetoric appearing in the press. I know a very tiny number of NAC people who do use San Pedro. I know far more who absolutely reject it. I have never met any NAC member who would accept synthetic mescaline as a sacrament. There certainly may be someone out there but I have not met them and far more members would protest against the idea rather loudly. The discussions referenced at chacruna are generally about the concern for protecting peyote populations by insisting that only synthetic mescaline should be used for therapeutic applications rather than peyote or mescaline that has been extracted from peyote. There are at least five psychedelic start-ups based around the use of mescaline so that is a great idea. As was mentioned earlier, one can also find this notion being embraced in a number of the Decrim Nature initiatives. The thing which would go farthest to resolve the dilemma with the least complexity would be repealing the controlled substances act and also declaring peyote to be a federally listed endangered species. Congress gave all people in the USA who qualify for federal aid by virtue of being recognized as a member of any indigenous entity (group, tribe, pueblo, etcetera) the right to harvest, possess, transport, and consume peyote and to cultivate it in a regulated manner so adding that layer of protection to peyote would not affect NAC peyote access or use.

https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0378874120331986 in rodents, at least.

Back in my days of fiendish behaviour, I noticed with my dispenser (for whipped cream bulbs) very fine particulate matter, dark greyish in colour. Looks like filth to be putting in one's lungs. I'm not sure if the substance was residue from the cream bulbs or the interior of the aluminium dispenser. I wouldn't recommend imbibing directly from a whipped cream dispenser; use a balloon or similar as an intermediary container. I never got to try automotive or hospital grade. N20 rigs in hospitals always include a second canister, containing oxygen, with which it is mixed for safety. I had an intense -- ultimately, horrific -- experience combining N20 with something believed (at the time) to be LSD. It was a very potent combination that led me to abandon psychedelics for at least 10 years. The last thing I remember is throwing the dispenser as far as I could throw.

Ok, here's my nang tales... When I was a teenager back in the late 80s/ early 90s, we started on the bulbs. Then in the early 90s at uni, I graduated to the next level. My buddy and I planned our first mission like a military operation. We cut our way into the medical gas bunker and made off with the prize, an 8000 litre blue tank. We struggled to carry it, but we made it back to safe base. Then the madness began. We went to a rave up near peats ridge, dropped acid, and found the cops had shut it down as we arrived. Shit. Plan B. We knew we had no chance of making it back to Sydney in one piece by then, so we settled on a waterfront carpark in woy woy. An entire night of nitrous acid fueled mayhem ensued. At one point I found myself standing waist deep in the water, just came to like that. Anyway, this pattern continued over many months, we hit the bunker several times until they really beefed up security. So we stepped up to hospitals. Raided a few hospitals of their sweet creamy gas, and partied very very hard. My buddy was living in a residential college, and one day had a cylinder on his bed, lying flat. He couldn't be bothered with any balloons or such and decided to suck straight from the valve. Bad idea. Basic physics really, the level of gas was high, so the liquid level was above the level of the valve. Liquid straight to gaseous phase equals extreme cold. He froze his mouth to the valve. Had to rip his lips free from the metal. Then, the pain started. He was too scared to leave his room, being lipless and all, and he needed pain relief. So he sucked about 6000 litres of nitrous down over the course of a few days. I shudder to think of his bone density now. And I continued. I arranged a raid on a veterinary surgery, and made off with the grand prize. A 17500 litre tank. We had a party the next night, and there was a nitrous room. At first we had a scuba regulator with 4 masks, but after a few hours, we just shut the door, turned on the tank and let the acid and nitrous really take hold. Needless to say, this is not recommended behaviour. By the morning, the tank was dry, and there was a mound of snow round the base that had condensed from the heat exchange. I think that was probably the last time I really went on a nitrous bender, I knew I had to stop by this stage or I'd end up dead. There is nothing. And I mean nothing that compares with excellent acid and medical grade nitrous. I used to travel to past lives, future lives, other people's lives... Ahhh, so many more tales in the vault

It was the jerking off I felt guilty about