Benzito Posted September 27, 2006 Guess who's back suckas? That's right, the rumors are true, Benzito is finally back! :D This is my official thread for people to flip out, and ask me why I haven't been on SAB since 22nd March. I figured every thread I post in for the next few weeks, would be hi-jacked otherwise... I do plan to give you all a lengthy explanation for my absence, but I'm at work right now. Work is a major part of the reason I don't have as much net-time anymore these days, but all will be revealed soon enough....... Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Legba Posted September 27, 2006 wb benzito so... u coming to the next sydney meet? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
MORG Posted September 27, 2006 Welcome back Cosb- uh, Benz. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Tripitaka Posted September 27, 2006 Ben whoso?? Great to have you here again mate! looking forward to some random comments and twisted humour. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
apothecary Posted September 27, 2006 Whozito? Length explanation not withstanding, wb dude! If you're not at the next Sydney meet you're toast! Woooo Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
AndyAmine. Posted September 27, 2006 No explinations needed bro, its just great to have the Benzito back in action.. I have missed your regular doses of humor.. this place certainly needs it at the moment, so your back jst in time.. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
planthelper Posted September 27, 2006 benzitito, como estas? estas bien, rico! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Benzito Posted September 27, 2006 Thanks guys. It's good to be back. To be honest, I can't believe I was gone for so long. I don't know why I disappeared, it just kind of happened gradually... When I started back at work at the start of the year, after my wonderful holidays up North, the workload seemed to increase instantly. I work customer service, answering phones, and I have those 1200+ posts because I used to have plenty of free time to read the forums at work. A few long-term people at work left, and I got 'promoted' to most senior team member. At only 3 years with the company, I now have 50 year old trainees asking me questions, while I try to carry out my 'pump specialist' duties and answer mundane phone calls. All of a sudden I stopped posting, I just didn't have the time. I still visited once a week for a month or so, but eventually I guess I just felt I didn't need SAB anymore. Now is the part I can't explain. Why I didn't come back. I've thought long and hard about it, and I think it is because of you people that I stayed away for so long. But not in the way you think... SAB was the first group of people I ever found that we're so like minded and accepted me for who I was. You guys gave me the self-esteem I'd never had before. Then I visited Torsten, Darklight, Amulte, Tripitaka & AndyAmine while I was on Holidays around New Years (GOD I hope I didn't forget anyone, I was sooo baked), and I was given the confidence to start meeting new people face to face. I'd always been pretty shy with meeting new people, but you guys were all so damn cool and accepting of me, I realised other humans couldn't be that bad. So, the new & improved(thanks to SAB crew) Benzito went and met new people. In March I started hanging out with a group of Urban Explorers. The idea of going in drains and abandoned buildings sounded scary and stupid to me. But these guys did it regularly, and they weren't dead. Now that I wasn't into psychadelics as much as I had been last year, and I didn't have the SAB people around to help me test my boundaries, I found a new way to explore my world. Literally. I started pushing my mental limits through confronting my fears. Kat and I have spent every single weekend since March, in Sydney, crawling around in stormwater drains, exploring abandoned buildings, long disused cable tunnels and unseen pieces of Sydney's history. It has been thrilling, and I have conquered several of my life-long fears in the process, and made a great bunch of friends. But, god-damn if I don't miss you guys. No-one else is as humble, down-to-earth, honest and genuinely loving than the people on these forums. Guys, I'm sure I owe even more explanation than that, and I know I owe a f*ckload more apologies, but I guess we'll have to smooth it out over the coming weeks. I'm still very busy at work, and I still spend my weekends exploring, but I will make time for you all. You guys really are my friends, and I'm sorry to have taken so much and not stuck around to give, in return. I hope I can make it up to you all. I should also give a notable mention to Darcy and Torsten here. They are the only 2 people off here who actually contacted me outside the forums, and both asked me to let you all know that I was OK, and said I would be welcome/wanted back. That said I also appreciate that others respected my privacy enough to let me have the space and time to get back in contact when I was ready. I just love you all! So, what's been happening? Andy, why do you say SAB needs humor right now? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
apothecary Posted September 27, 2006 I tried contacting you a bunch of times on your mobi Benz, pms, etc, but got no reply Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
MORG Posted September 27, 2006 I was given the confidence to start meeting new people face to face. I know what you mean. I think the crew here have given me a shot in the arm of this medicine when I was looking for it. I started hanging out with a group of Urban Explorers I'd love to know more about your experiences with this. I read about it in 'The Big Issue'. Sounds awesome. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
occidentalis Posted September 27, 2006 Great story I guess urban exploration is another kind of psychedelic travel. Journeys into the physical underworld of society are somewhat similar to those into the psychic and emotional underworld of the mind. Welcome back , . Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Torsten Posted September 27, 2006 If I had the guts to go urban exploring I would probably forget about ethnobotany too - for a while at least I used to love caving and found that to be one of the greatest mental challenges ever (I am claustrophobic ), but as I got older I could no longer do it. I explored some sewers in North Sydney and some disused rail tunnels in the city when I used to live there, but there is only so far you can go while on acid There are quite a few people who wanted to contact you, but because of some of the things you told me and others we weren't sure if lots of phonecalls from various freaks would not compound your possible situation from a legal perspective. So the fact you weren't inundated with calls (on your dead mobile ) was for your protection rather than neglect. Quite a few people were extremely worried about you, including amulte for example. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
_e_ Posted September 27, 2006 great to have you back buddy, and WORD to what creach said about urban exploring... I used to do quite a lot of urban exploring when i was in my early teens and a rampaging pyromaniac. These days i get the same kicks out of bush walking and softcore mountain climbing. However give me an abandoned house and some art supplies anyday. One of the best things ive ever seen was a massive display of uv/blacklight artwork in an old disused train tunnel, bloody a-maze-ing. and indeed the forums need a good hard injection fo your humour and laughin bill crosby avatar. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
transDiMenTional Posted September 27, 2006 yeah man even i missed bill! WB Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
dqd Posted September 27, 2006 Those Delosperma seedlings of yours are monsters now man ... welcome back mate and may The Kava be with you Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
-YT- Posted September 28, 2006 Great too see you back Benzzzz. Excellant to hear you are getting out and about and thoroughly enjoying yourself in the process! We all certainly did miss your energy around here, make sure you make it into Lab sometime to have a chat if and when you can Much Peace, Love and Light to you Ben Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
wandjina Posted September 28, 2006 Welcome Back brother...I missed you! So happy to have you round again.....love to Kat Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
mescalito Posted September 28, 2006 We must have went AWOL about the same time Benz. Good to have you back with us mate. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Benzito Posted September 28, 2006 Apo- "I tried contacting you a bunch of times on your mobi Benz, pms, etc, but got no reply" Yeah, I also forgot to mention that I lost my mobile at a music festival in February or so, and only just got a new SIM card last weekend! That was another big part of my absence. With my increased stress at work I started to get the whole 'world on your shoulders' depression thing going on. I realised alot of my RL mates only ever called me to score for them, or to get me to suggest a spot to smoke at. When I stopped calling people to organise Friday night festivities, they only called me if they didn't have something to do. I was starting to feel used by my work AND my friends. When I lost my mobile, I felt like a weight was lifted from my shoulders. All of a sudden I wasn't having to organise everyone else's recreational time anymore. I wouldn't ever suggest that the people on SAB have been a 'drain' or a 'tax' on me, but I guess it was another group of people I had personal obligations to, and I guess I ran from my obligations for a while there. But I want you all to know, I wasn't having a dig at anyone when I mentioned T and Darcy where the only people to contact me. I was just making sure credit is given where it's due. They told me just how much some people were missing me, and the effect my disappearance had on some of those people. I honestly did appreciate that I didn't have you all clamouring all over me to come back though. If I'd had that kind of pressure, I probably wouldn't have come back. It's just how I was feeling at the time. I harbour no resentment or bitter feelings towards any of you, I feel guilty if anything. Either way, I'm back now, and overflowing with love to spread all over you, Bukkake style! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
apothecary Posted September 28, 2006 *old timer voice* There hasn't been a good bukkak'in around these parts for well on nigh two months now.... Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
occidentalis Posted September 28, 2006 You mean to say you're not really Bill Cosby? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
botanika Posted September 29, 2006 Benzito: Ahoy! Welcome back ashore! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Benzito Posted September 29, 2006 Thankyou, thankyou, thankyou guys. All the old names, and faces that I've imagined to go with them... It's so great to be welcome with open arms. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Evil Genius Posted October 2, 2006 Hi Benzito, it feels good to see Bill Cosbys dirty smile again. In the meantime it felt like you´d went to the north pole in order to sell refrigerators. We´re glad you´r finally back in town. later. bye EG Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
