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So there I was sitting under the apple tree A single line of constants and unconditional love Three times did a tiger roar And on the fourth I heard a dragon sing Sing me praises she said, so I did More was less and it was exciting Confusing at times but simple, you know? Keeping yourself together Sick dog or maybe not True love was worth a shot I'm moving mountains for the best sellers And keeping it all to myself Could sadhu exist completely untamed on a winter's day So you reckon regular customers have their own heir to the throne I reckon I could play a few simple tunes But longing is different to being and simplicity is only perfect Kick the bucket my friend, I'll keep going! Piss to the wind and give back to an island of light Eleven pence me thinks, with pretty flavours and a tie in the knot Kiss it goodbye One last thing, I'm easy Total absolution is like pie in the sky Misery is commandeered by the weary Total silence comes when wind blows It was an ideology for burning bridges and crossing the river It came and went, so forwards moved forward Ideology this, Ideology that Brown snakes in a paper bag Confused yet? Same. Pray for star trek enterprise Move forward into light and love Find hope in a darkest hour And all will be well from up above Checked out at the checkout making mistakes Graced out on Hawaii building lakes Sorry for this my watch just broke And completely insane Jesuit True love, it's a great feeling An abyss was great too after you threw it away Before or after a quizzical look Sentences that could go on forever Soldier on mighty fiends Credit card history check Fuck you and your little dog too Minds are built for mansions I'm composing something special here But it might be a little sideways over on the left there Glasses on and it'll come down hard So here we are I like pikachu but what's that about Pokemon cards are like Peruvian gods Stickers for the divine and confetti particles Something's not right but nevermind Creator. Sequential dots lined up stars in a cosmos of offical unity Fire filled the bellies of the hungry and dust turned to dust Escape not so rewind eternity The pursuit of happiness is a lingering scent under your nose Thank reasons alive and fish in the pond I wrote truth upon the walls of the innocent A leg up could get you only so far, all aboard the chosen train Forget happiness I’m in love Six o’clock was timely enough even though My scorpion can beat yours in a duel Size me up I’ll cut it clean like Beirut Dogs Drinking wine because the lacing is sweet Setting up shop in your basement and getting on going on Mine’s a chipmunk, what’s yours Sixty dollars Sunrise upon these glorious isles forget Vegas Kicking the feet up on heavenly bliss track lines and farts Snooze AM is perfect for actual centipedes but never so called doggies A woman is simple just because A wasted abyss speaks to people of every single creed Even the little ones Could pikachu jump the rope or masonary include simple tunes Never forget simple tunes Little Brother

For the longest journey I’ve known a calling Home is a fragment of truth that guides from beyond It’s been like living black and white for all I’ve known in life I find true home in where my soul fastens to yours These flames are first breaths of Real in the illusory My deepest yearning is truth yet found surely in each other Our wholeness is truth but truth could never fulfil our spirit So worship above all else this bond perfection everlasting A lost memory of separation fits recognition of hereafter Praying to my very origination calling myself all parts This psychedelic mirror a spark of between I love you

I’ve never felt so good

My peruvian heart

There was an opening as I found my knowing in the other half of me I spent time writing on focused intent and shared the truth of spiritual law and love It was a perfection of protection that I understood as my completion As trust returned anger subsided and I agreed to see things clear My faith was placed in front of me yet it was broken by tests There was not one but two others and my own mind it finished last Serenity could restore beauty and trust but would it remain into tomorrow My heart broken a few rare times and seeing true I could carry on I could tell so many times that there’s nothing like coming home True love and truly known then forgotten myself and thrown to the wind What’s it worth to you I may ask if the wind blows these saddened tunes This time I remember something never felt and more than anything before I use my mind to imagine I’m so small as only a cell in two infinite beings in love and intertwined I visit the very heart of god then even larger and ask our humans aligned to our true hearts also Nothing better I pray than love bliss and joy expanding beyond all existence of its very self This feeling it may come or go but I feel home and want truly nothing more than that Consuming with everything that I am and expanding beyond more than anything that I am Separation it hurts when finding union is a spark that frees us wholly totally and completely Beauty could burn a lifetime as connecting the essence of higher levels was a soul split in two A bond for siblings of magic and spirit running deeper than blood a mirror of hearts aligned Not if but when We savour now our calling to source This bliss and this knowing Our wholeness is only growing into seeds And the blossoming into trees Is our reaching to greater spheres

There might not be any scientific sort of proof for telepathy but I'm sure that I've communicated with other aspects of my own self such as my higher self or the more expanded state of my consciousness in a higher dimensions. It can take time and persistence but I feel that with regular focused intention our higher awareness can and does respond in ways that can be extraordinarily significant. I'm coming back baby!

A second poem for the first women because I’m in love with you The meaning to that is it will always remain like equal parts of the first man I mean what I say and I see what I feel so I’m knowing that truth in my rite Giving can be receiving like loving can be sharing as happiness is more than worthwhile Hey sister we’re going home like eternal snowballs that stay alive The longest journey praying true life’s journey to the council of councils in counselling It may be slang but it comes from the heart as there’s no place like home in the jungle Then it may be our choice to choose what’s right and depart this world in a calling I’ve made my wishes to the stars and the moon to infinity and all the way back My prayers even more than that and to love just as much and I swear that you’re right A true miracle is finding hope in a darkest hour whilst love is the saviour of abyss The Creator of All through believing the deepest scars and burns could heal in light I spent winter in darkness and your sunrise was bliss each time I awakened Trust is such a completion I received and I asked for and now we will ask for more I could say it all my life those words would never grow old and neither would we It’s crazy to truly have the best and feel its rightful place in your arms Divinity is few and far between for a men who might love a woman Sin is wrong reasoning against the archetype and denial of Christ Here by the fall we gain power by control and hurt and steal free will Our soul is beauty joy and love it was taken and will never be the same again

Hope is where the heart is The difference of night and day Hope is the beginning A particle made from dust Created by gentle beings A Peruvian love story Our last hope Lost hope To find an only way To restore the great divide The true creation With everything I am More than anything I am And forevermore Cause it was all worthwhile I feel you No release from pain I love you Think of what we’ll gain I miss you Lastly We hung upon a cross But did not cross over To be reborn Into truth and love

I’m not particularly up to date on the laws myself but I know there is a company called Indivita that I believe is based in Sydney and is a reasonable price for what is available in Australia. https://indivitahemp.com/ There’s a Facebook group called CBD Reviews Australia where the oil has been tested and compared to what else is available on the market.

1800-true-light You should call it anytime If at first you don’t succeed Then I’ve dialled it in this rhyme To express a higher oneness I do perceive it with my mind And the boundaries of insanity I’ve lost so many times The struggle it is a paradox As this realm is only limited I may be a spiritual being Yet my experience is human An anti-creation force A soul less capture This truth was for learning As well as a golden rapture Long live the queen God bless her heart And all its missing pieces And her only man http://www.missionignition.net/pfcn/

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Here’s another thread worth reading if you are interested in CBD oil availability.

Well I did a bit of reading into this and came across a few sources that could be considered dietary. A few purely natural sources here: https://www.longecity.org/forum/topic/73458-natural-5-ht1a-agonistsantagonists-pssdand-cognitive-function/ Berberine The anxiolytic mechanism of BER might be related to the increase in turnover rates of monoamines in the brain stem and decreased serotonergic system activity. Moreover, BER decreased serotonergic system activity via activation of somatodendritic 5-HT1A autoreceptors and inhibition of postsynaptic 5-HT1A and 5-HT2 receptors. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15350820 Creatine These results indicate that the antidepressant-like effect of creatine is likely mediated by an interaction with 5-HT1A receptors. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/23352985 Ginger In this study, bioactivity-guided fractionation of a ginger extract identified nine compounds that interact with the human serotonin 5-HT(1A) receptor with significant to moderate binding affinities https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/20363635 Sodium butyrate In conclusion, NaB may exert antidepressant-like effects in combination with EB in ovariectomized female rats through 5-HT1A receptor, via altering the expression of 5-HT1A in the hypothalamus. https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S016643280800497X Also Myo-inositol may act like SSRIs in the brain: Several studies have proposed a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor-like role for myo-inositol, likely due to the fact that myo-inositol is the second messenger of serotonin https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/22031267 Omega 3 fatty acids We propose mechanisms by which EPA increases serotonin release from presynaptic neurons by reducing E2 series prostaglandins and DHA influences serotonin receptor action by increasing cell membrane fluidity in postsynaptic neurons. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/?term=Vitamin+D+Vitamin+D+and+the+omega-3+fatty+acids+control+serotonin+synthesis+and+action%2C+part+2%3A+relevance+for+ADHD%2C+bipolar+disorder%2C+schizophrenia%2C+and+impulsive+behavior Exercise Several lines of research suggest that exercise increases brain serotonin function in the human brain. Post and colleagues56 measured biogenic amine metabolites in cerebrospinal fluid (CSF) of patients with depression before and after they increased their physical activity to simulate mania. Physical activity increased 5-HIAA, but it is not clear that this was due to increased serotonin turnover or to mixing of CSF from higher regions, which contain higher levels of 5-HIAA, with lumbar CSF (or to a combination of both mechanisms). Nonetheless, this finding stimulated many animal studies on the effects of exercise. For example, Chaouloff and colleagues57 showed that exercise increased tryptophan and 5-HIAA in rat ventricles. More recent studies using intracerebral dialysis have shown that exercise increases extracellular serotonin and 5-HIAA in various brain areas, including the hippocampus and cortex (for example, see58–60). Two different mechanisms may be involved in this effect. As reviewed by Jacobs and Fornal,61 motor activity increases the firing rates of serotonin neurons, and this results in increased release and synthesis of serotonin.62 In addition, there is an increase in the brain of the serotonin precursor tryptophan that persists after exercise. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2077351/#!po=28.2609

I have heard from a number of people that CBD oil did/does get through customs, but that may have changed since I last heard about it. I just did a quick google and I found an article updated June 2018, saying the companies that were getting through have stopped shipping. I know of people that have been using CBD oil for many months and years now. I happened to find some being sold within Australia on eBay, but I have a friend who regularly orders it in the mail, and even saw it advertised on TV. I can try to ask him exactly where he orders from. “So far no Australians have been prosecuted for purchasing CBD Hemp Oil or importing it from overseas.” “Eternal Plants ship CBD Oil directly to Australia from Japan, we offer free delivery which takes about 5-7 working days. All our CBD Oil is whole plant extract, organically produced, GMP Certified and lab tested.” “Endoca will soon stop shipping to Australia from Europe. Although their shipping costs are a bit high and it can take up to two weeks for delivery. They offer a high quality CBD Oil but their prices are a bit more expensive for most people to afford. Elixinol used to be a popular brand in Australia but due to the recent legal changes Elixinol suspended all their activities until they get the required licences and are currently seeking partnerships with doctors to continue selling their oil. Charlotte’s Web have now stopped shipping to Australia from the USA, We recommend that you to stick with reputable companies who test their products properly for efficacy and safety.” https://eternalplants.com.au/is-cbd-oil-legal-australia/

Ever heard of 11.11? You can google it. They are called synchronicities or meaningful coincidences and happen to me all the time with numbers, it’s spooky. But I also feel it is an example of how the universe can act in a fluid vibrational way as opposed to something solid density if that makes sense. I recall reading a writing by Carl Jung on it, and there is a wiki page on it here: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Synchronicity Perhaps you could google the symbolic meanings of the animals you saw, if you feel the universe is trying to say something to you.

On the Big Bang theory, one of the characters said something like, cats brains run on the same frequencies that psychic events do. I don’t know if that is true, but there is anecdotal evidence that cats and dogs can be psychic.

Yeah, that’s interesting that nimitta fits the description. The light becoming all encompassing sounds like that first jhana type of description. It is a state of bliss and stillness that comes from holding the mind in stillness for periods of time. I couldn’t think of a better description than that from Ajahn Brahm.

It is hard to explain for me and I’m no expert on jhana as such, but to my own meditation jhana has represented a space of conscious awareness I can return to regularly and where my mind becomes still enough that bliss begins to flow throughout the body/consciousness as a natural reaction to that. I believe this represents access concentration in the following description. I believe the second jhana involves a deepening through a letting go of that bliss. Check this out it helps to draw a line as to whether ones peak experiences have been related to jhanic absorption or sometimes preparation for it: https://www.dharmaoverground.org/discussion/-/message_boards/message/5781249 I did mention a visionary dream state I experienced once before which was by all means transcendental but a way of purging emotional pain and in that way unrelated to first jhana, so again I’m not sure what that means in this sense either. Personally I have always referred to Thai forest as well

The first jhana is to my own knowing as once the mind becomes completely still then it becomes very peaceful then waves of bliss bring it into a fully transcendent state so it is unmistakable in that sense

I came across some visionary states whilst sleeping when working with this practice: https://www.amazon.com/Short-Path-Meditation-Techniques-Enlightenment/dp/0985603518 but also I was fasting and camping outdoors. When I awoke I had mild psychedelia like visuals as if my pineal gland was pumping out new and various chemicals or hormones. It was really an amazing experience to experience such a transcedental state whilst lucid and aware. Also I hear Vitamin B6 works with dream states as well.

Yes i follow the samatha (concentration) Buddhism and was taught about using Jhana for spiritual awakening by a Thai tradition. I am close to achieving first jhana in my daily meditations, and feel this is a best approach for me as I become mentally unstable. I love spiritual things, Buddhism and the real pursuit of awakening. It gives my life the meaning it deserves.

dear me, a note to self. trying a nueroleptic with everyday breakfast.

It sounds like to me the story of Christ in the Amazon. It's very moving.