gomaos Posted February 13, 2002 I just read mesqualero's poems, which are excellent and very, very dark... Something very sad happened last sunday and I am still trying to get to terms with it. It is too painful to talk about now, I cannot believe it is possible. But it happened. And now I'm sitting here, reading dark poems, listening to radiohead, and the winds rip around the house and through the open windows... and I'm scared: Scared that even worse things could happen: that former love turned to utter hate has now infected the innocent and made it a tool of evil. This world has become a snakepit, hope disintegrates before it even manifests what else can evil do? Take total control? Break personalities and use their body as a vehicle for their devilish purpose? Like a slimy body snatcher that enters the brain from behind and takes over? What has become of LOVE? This world has moved away from me, from my inner self, from what I am. I am still here, but I am not want nor desire, I am only purpose and need. It is love that keeps me here in this space, it's what I have to do, but when I'm done, I can allow my true wish: To Rest. To Forget. To be at peace. To take a step back. Not to play the game. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest Mesqualero Posted February 13, 2002 wow man that's all i can say. You know everyone says "I understand" but i'm not being facetious when i say i can truly relate to your words. You know where I am if you ever wanna talk about shit dude.... take it easy OH FUCK MAN I'm not superstitious (much) but check out the post number gomaos! 666 That's too much for me [This message has been edited by Mesqualero (edited 12 February 2002).] Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
gomaos Posted February 13, 2002 OH FUCK MAN I'm not superstitious (much) but check out the post number gomaos! 666 That's too much for me Fuck man yeah:666 So it is the devil i'm up against! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
anubian lights Posted February 17, 2002 Turn off the radiohead Gomaos. Might try some Hendrix, his guitar trips right off into the chill zone. Lots of different music vibes travel down into the dark zone. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
anubian lights Posted February 25, 2002 Hey Gomaos. Might be time for another trip up into Nepal. Mushrooms and Hash. So weird how such powerful trips spawn from water-buffalo shit. I think we should make a mission to bring back these spores to copy own spore-prints. Still a bit freaky due to the prince killing his family, then himself! Still. Times of chaos are excellent times for growth. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
gomaos Posted February 25, 2002 Originally posted by anubian lights:Hey Gomaos. Might be time for another trip up into Nepal. Mushrooms and Hash. Jeez, man I'd love that. Can anyone here lend me $10000 so I can go? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Veronica Posted February 25, 2002 Originally posted by gomaos:[b Can anyone here lend me $10000 so I can go?[/b] Ok lets all go it sounds good gomaos. All we need is a gun, a bank and a shit load of balls and we will be eating Mushrooms and smoking Hash in Nepal. [This message has been edited by Veronica (edited 25 February 2002).] Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest shroomyy Posted February 26, 2002 ]Originally posted by Veronica: Ok lets all go it sounds good gomaos. All we need is a gun, a bank and a shit load of balls and we will be eating Mushrooms and smoking Hash in Nepal. [/b] LETS TAKE MULGA he can go on point Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Guest tsttantra Posted February 26, 2002 ill just take ashit load of temple balls,thank you! think they have a MAOist revolution going on at the moment,could be interesting. t s t . Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
gomaos Posted April 15, 2002 La Di Da [This message has been edited by gomaos (edited 15 April 2002).] Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
anubian lights Posted April 21, 2002 To truely read your poem Gomaos I touch on a sense of despair and desire to drift closer to the abyss and slide over the edge into oblivion. I call it being comfortably numb. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
gomaos Posted April 21, 2002 "Comfortably Numb" is associate with a Pink Floyd Song. Pink Floyd and Radiohead are similar in some ways, not in others Sorry, still stuck on Radiohead. "Amnesiac" I love Hendrix too, trouble is he's been dead so long and doesn't make new stuff. Could anyone imagine what sort of music he would make today, if he was still alive? Unimaginable. Comfortably numb... relates to weed stone? Probably. Nothing much wrong with it, as long as one doesn't binge. Binging on anything is harmful to mind, body and soul. Amen. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Pablo Posted April 21, 2002 comfortably numb more like heroin i think, definitely not weed me thinks Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Darklight Posted April 21, 2002 I dunno, the odd binge clears the cobwebs nothing like an excess of moderation to bog you in a rut Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
anubian lights Posted April 22, 2002 Had a weird experience. I was listening to some music then I though I heard a riot happening in the park across the road. Still I just sat, then it became a gang across the street playing really loud punk music. So I decided to turn down and just listen. Then I realised it was some lame ass 80's party. Kinda made me feel delusional but at the same time i was sucked back into my own room and face the demon that sent me out there. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
anubian lights Posted April 28, 2002 One thing I really dig on the forums is when people relate how they are feeling by what music they are listening to. Just like gomaos did in his post. But I'd tend to agree with assassin that "comfortably numb"is more about heavy medication than weed. But its still such a stoner song as well. Radiohead freak me out a lot, its really paranoid and delusional but I really like it. Tripped me out when Mesqualero quoted "stealing peoples mail" in some other forum. Free copy of "Archaic Revival" for the first to say the band and song name... "so point the finger, blame the other, watch the temple tumble over. Bring the pieces back together, rediscover communication." Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
coin Posted April 28, 2002 serious offer? hehe schism - tool just saw the parabola clip last night..very interesting Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Gwydion Posted April 28, 2002 This is a public service announcement: "Some say a comet will fall from the sky, followed by meteor-showers and tidal waves, followed by faultlines that cannot sit still, followed by millions of dumbfounded dimshits, and some say the end is near. Some say we'll see Armageddon soon. Certainly hope we will. Sure could use a vacation from this stinking shit sinking ship, stinking shit sinking ship. One great big festering neon distraction, I've a suggestion to keep you all occupied- learn to swim, learn to swim. Mom's gonna fix it all soon. Mom's coming 'round to put it back the way it oughta be!" Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Pablo Posted April 28, 2002 sums up my mood at the moment pretty good think i'll go and evacuate my bowels then watch it being flushed away Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
anubian lights Posted April 28, 2002 Good one Coin. Your the lucky winner I guess I should have though of something a bit more obscure seeing there are so many tuned in music heads out there. But anubian is a man of his word though, so what you have won is a copy of "Alien Dreamtime" CD. Spacetime continuum with Terence Mckenna. Its pretty cool with Terence peforming a couple of raves backed by spacetime and some nice dij playing by Stephen Kent. So just send your postal address in my E-mail profile. And it'll be headed your way. Hey Assassin, why so down Brother? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Pablo Posted April 29, 2002 competition didnt go for very long did it. i took my time to write some lyrics straight from the heart and go and give the prize away... oh well, i'll post em anyway. --- straight outta compton shooting down slobs and ass kicking with homeboys in the hood shooting with A'K's slobs are dying the way they should living the life of a gngster is hard you have to stay in your own turf or drive around in a car or else you get shot at--blood or crip living a life of a gangster is alright now i'm a gangster from compton park village crips, and we do a lot of blood killing i'm a cool homeboy, but when it's time i'll bust some heads cause we're crip force. here's how it started some punks were heading our way with a red rag like the nigga I shot in the head with an uzi cause he was a slob who though he was a bad mutha throwing signs all over the place I walked up to that punk and shot him in the face Cause we're the homies from park village crips slangin' and bangin' and bustin' lips cause you slobs want it you got it my bannana clip shoots uzi will wast you asses. for real! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Pablo Posted April 30, 2002 but if you had asked me thursday morning: Fatboy Slim - Song For Shelter I get deep, I get deep, I get deep, I get deeper into this thing the deeper I go the more knowledge I know what to sing what to bring wha? I get deep, I get deep, I get deep, I get deeper, deeper, deeper into the rhyme wha? why? Chillin' in the corner at the shelter all by myself checkin it out im not dancin' no more but why? why? why? wha? How on earth are you supposed to vibe around the fake ones the one, the ones that say they know what is what but they don't know what is what they just strut what the fuck? wha? I get deep, I get deep, I get deep, I get deep, I get deeper into this thing and I pretend that they're not there I just stare up in the booth at the dread man spinnin the song spinnin it strong playing things like we cannot house we can thats my shit what? whoooooo! I get deep, I get deep, I get deeper, I get deeper when people start to disappear and it's about six o'clock whoo I'm feelin' hot take off my sweater and my pants and I start to dance and all the sweat just goes down my face and I pretend that there's nobody there but me in this place I get deep, oh i get deep, what? whoo! I get deep, I get deep, I get deep, I get deep he takes all the bass out of the song and all you hear is highs and it's like oh, shit! ahh I get deeper I get deep, I get deep, I get deep, I get deep and the rythym flows through my blood like alcohol and I get drunk and I oh all over the place And I catch myself right on time right on line with the beat and its so sweet, sweet, sweet, sweet I get deeper I get deeper I get deeper Wha? the house music was ale and Doctor love would be my song And I would only take deep breaths and fill my lungs with the rythym or the bass I get deeper heh, ha --- i'm going to order some 5-htp from club natural now... Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
gomaos Posted May 2, 2002 It's back... Evil has spread it's grey rugged wings again and is on the rise a few weeks, brief period of happiness, things were the way they should be, now the ugly witch has risen again from the gutter showing her face of greed and possessiveness, claiming what's HER'S, claiming the humans that are HER property, claiming the humans I try to set free... The Love? The Love? The Love? all you need is love Love is all you need Love....Love...Love... [This message has been edited by gomaos (edited 06 May 2002).] Share this post Link to post Share on other sites