courage Posted December 21, 2015 I can hear us I can feel us Riding waves, and drowning souls Screaming, twisted, mourning, distorted This stain was never meant to be Red eyes and all The blackest essence And I still love you All the pain we've ever felt Blame rests in abyss Guilt as my anchor Escape as my sails Home is all but lost, yet my tears are salt There is no beauty Just a resonate vacuum and thin air An intangible symphony Desire is but ashes in my mouth 6 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Sallubrious Posted December 25, 2015 Yesterday the fat man came and answered all my dreams for superficial machinations of digital machines So now I'm trying to define just what all that means Have I walked the earth in ignorance was it all just hopeful meaningless or blissful wasted time or was it spent all just spent on clichéd things that no-one can define Will all my prayers be answered will I one day paint it black or will the secrets all be revealed of Santa and his sack Will the Universe reveal itself Will I one day see the light Or will the gods that be reveal themselves I am the captain of my soul. 4 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
courage Posted February 21, 2016 I was filled with darkness Our hand twisted Our blood was shed What is freedom Unless denied? Or so they said... I lived that blackness I lived those deepest recesses And now I live, Existence This is remorse I cannot bear Pain was my creation And fear is all I know Misery is like a delicate flower Once in bloom Once to wither and to decay For there is nothing left in breaking apart Nor the aftermath of an eternity And that I was denied A fallacy at its best Victimised, sodomised, lobotomised Oh what joy in science Unless on the receiving end You are me and I am you This is why we send the troops And why I'll see this torture through Isn't it wonderful? All we've learned? How to stick a gun down a throat? And force others against their will? I sat by and waited turns Survivors guilt is sadness too I'd rather felt the pain Waiting with anticipation I know it's coming But at what cost If a fire blazes through a town And all is turned to ash Do we pick up the pieces and keep going Or redesign what's left Can we start afresh If nothing has been learned? I'll kill you And I'll make it quick Cause I know how it feels But my death doesn't end So I'm giving you the benefit To help end this now Dying to death is my only release Perpetual self conflict This is how it ends In dust Money power and fame I'm taking what is mine For better or for worse If I drive myself to the grave In my search for immortality Perhaps then, death will greet me My search for permanence Uncovered impermanence My search for love Was only lust Punish me I long for the sweet release From fear so binding Terrorise me I long for the death Of all unknown Cut my skin and watch me bleed I'm preparing for the worst Running a treadmill with nowhere to go For this is the nature of suffering. 2 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Sallubrious Posted February 21, 2016 Are you OK Bro ? You can PM me if you need to talk mate. I hope that was a form of therapy and it helps you to move past your pain. 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
courage Posted February 24, 2016 Therapy indeed, a counterpart of healing and learning. Thankyou, I'm ok 3 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
ColinO'Scopy Posted February 25, 2016 (edited) Two years ago I saw my usual quack for soreness in my ribs and aching in my back He took some blood and the usual cup of pee and to the x ray clinic he then dispatched me. A few days later he rang with sorrow 'Ring my reception, I want to see you tomorrow' Now that's an order you can't easily dismiss Perhaps he found something naughty in my piss. 'Your blood numbers are bad, I'll tell you no fibs and you've got lytic lesions on you're vertebrae and ribs. The symptoms are unusual, but there's no thrombosis, so Multiple Myeloma would be my diagnosis'. 'Multiple what? Ive never heard of that disease could tell me more of this strange condition please. 'Its a type of cancer, cancer of the blood cells, fatal and incureable and the prognosis kind of smells'. 'You've got about five years according to my book' 'Give that over here, let me take a fukin look' but he was fukin right, the doctor didn't lie, five year life expectancy I read with a sigh. 'How did I get it? I don't smoke fags or work with asbestos or fuck skanky hags'. 'Its purely random, not even heredity to blame we haven't got a clue to our eternal shame'. But that was all two years ago, progress has been made. scientific wonder drugs should give me a decade. So far the drugs are working like a charm Though you spend half your life getting needles in the arm. A stem-cell transplant helped recovery and made my face beam and all these lovely drugs are on the benefits scheme. I'm an old git already, I've lost a few years at the end, and impotence, arthritis, and going round the bend. Could be worse I've got a mate with much greater gravity, 47 year-old non smoker, cancer in the pleural cavity, Now its spreading through his body, its really vicious They reckon now that he won't be seeing fucking Christmas. Fuck going to Mars lets cure cancer. Good work Courage (and Sall), hope you're ok. Sorry to hijack your thread mate. Therapy poetry works good. Edited February 25, 2016 by ColinO'Scopy 5 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
courage Posted February 25, 2016 No need to apologise, keep it all coming! Best wishes 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
courage Posted February 29, 2016 Everyday, I think of you. Every way, I dream about who you are. If the condescendence can make us better, then this will make us greater. I've unlocked the gates, I'm going home. To Norah Head, till the cows come home. When it's all said and done, I'd rather be dead, than lost in a maze of twists and turns deprived of the wonder of what is. Success is great, you are beautiful. No wonder makes my heart sorrow. Like yesteryear, and tomorrow, and the next year, until the sun comes home. You'll be in my heart for ever and ever and ever. Don't ever stop reaching for me, over and over and over again. Sing my lovely, wither away and die. Sing to the trees, the birds and all of creation. Sing to the cows come home. I'm sorry it had to be this way, but don't forget we love you until the cows come home. Sweet serenade, such lovely foolish glee. Stagnant are the waters that drink from yesteryear, and the blackness of our soul family. In the garden you'll burn my ashes, and drink from the sweetest dew of the honeysuckle tree. This is my burden, this was my cage, and now I yearn for the Unknown, to be free from the shackles of yesteryear. Drink the sweetest blood, for the yesteryear time is dead and gone. Clean the walls and scrub the floors, for the shackles are all but dead and gone. Praise creation, for the time is now, to look up to the heavens and demand they let you in! And praise the joys of heaven on Earth. With my sweetest joys and best wishes, look up to the sun and say goodbye. For all that's left is dead and gone, and all that's new birthed from all so wrong. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
☽Ţ ҉ĥϋηϠ₡яღ☯ॐ€ðяئॐ♡Pϟiℓℴϟℴ Posted March 19, 2016 if she was still here what would she say to me now ? probably call me dick , probably call her a cow as we'd play fight just laughing and fuck up the settee trying to trick each other to make the next cup of tea Im sure you're still with me , always been there i curl up at night pretending to snug in your hair missing you deep , awake or asleep reminders still with me reminders I'll keep So onward and forward with all learned and known our dreams and our wishes , to live out on our own one day I'll join you in the land of the summer though meantime without you is a bit of a bummer So in spirit and heart , in mind and in soul I'll just keep going in pursuit our goal and when these full eyes get old and do fade I'll then come and find you deep in the shade 6 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
courage Posted March 30, 2016 Hope is where the heart is Dust is where our ashes lie Dreams are where the start is I think of you, I cry Try to remember Who and what you once where Go back to the beginning Let these words finish this stir My love is descending Flowing to the depths All pain is ending We are our babies steps I yearn with every fibre of my being To restore this ancient promise Each particle so precious And the totality no less Behind these words Together on our throne A unified oneness And this is your home 3 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
courage Posted April 1, 2016 For those who led the way There's not much I can say To sacrifice their own way To lay their life down to slay Never thinking of themselves Just caring for everyone else This is the true meaning of selfishness And expecting nothing in return I gave my life to you And you always gave it back Never lost sight of the track Even with a broken back For one that was so young To give their only son To lose all joy and fun The galactic federation of light May we see peace on Earth, Amen 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
courage Posted May 2, 2016 A shark is a creature shrouded in fear A shark is a creature that brings me to tears A shark is a victim to damages done A shark is alone without its sun A snake is a creature with lethal sting A snake is a victim to another’s sin A snake is a hero in saviours disguise A snake is an honour, a being so wise A bear is a killer with blood on its hands A bear is a mother who’s been raped on its land A man is a being with power of one A man is a being, ensure this is done 2 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
courage Posted May 4, 2016 (edited) With gratitude I sing to you With gratitude my heart so blue With wisdom as the church bells rang With wisdom as this great land sang With harmony the place to be With harmony is how I see My friends are what they mean to me I cannot thank you enough For pulling yourself together With trust, caring and service With a oneness that was careless Perfection was a great mistake Perfection was a salty lake Perfection is a lesson learned Perfection is waiting our turn Perfection is our saving grace. Edited May 7, 2016 by courage 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
courage Posted May 29, 2016 (edited) A consciousness reborn has a million ways of dying. A segment of truth can be found through running away. Each to their own, and own to their day. Bow down before years, I’ve slept in the hay. A sunrise earl morn, could crash the whole dawn. But each to their own, I have found a new way. Sometimes I wonder about each and feel a new sunrise in the earl of day. You can’t remember that which is unsure, words may put, birds may soar, but I lie in the hay. Gnashing of teeth and weeping of fears was a small price to pay for so many years, spent drowning in waves and strangling of souls. Through Mattew, years may pass, but I will lay down, surely this day. A pack of laughs,a bale of wool,a nasty laugh, and a surefire kill. Straight to the point, I work with a man, sometimes I feel like I’m owning this land. Rest assured my family, we’re here in the past. Rest assured my soul, there will be no last laugh. Edited May 29, 2016 by courage Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
courage Posted May 29, 2016 (edited) A human experience can seem like a chore. It can seem with no door, lifetimes on the floor. But a life well lived, is the greatest thing a man can carry. It will always be cherished, never again, a promise that has been kept. Edited May 29, 2016 by courage Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
courage Posted June 6, 2016 I was bargaining for a life when I pondered her. Death is rebirth, and is not birth life? Or is life death.. I was singing with the seashells when I saw her. The agony of beauty, and a fall from grace. Pain is my friend, is what I told her. And pain does not end, is what she said. The rapture of wilderness, a willow tree who would die to live. She shattered my heart, look what she did give. And that’s when I saw him. Standing in the light. Guilt is my anchor, rest is his sight. 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
courage Posted June 7, 2016 Let your angels of inspiration open my heart, Let your angels of courage fly inside. I shall make a golden cradle To make a place for courage. I shall make a place for courage. I shall make a golden fire To warm courage inside. I shall put my hands in your lap For you to bless and use. I shall put my heart in your lap To be caressed by your blessing hands. To grow courageous with your use To put high purpose in my heart. Inanna, Lady of the evening star, Inanna, Lady of the morning star, Study my words. May courage dwell inside my soul. As you have dwelt in the Great Above. May courage dwell my soul. As you have dwelt in the Great Below. May courage dwell in my soul and in my destiny. Make it so. Make it so. Make it so. Budapest, Zsuzsanna E. Grandmother Moon. 1991. Harper Collins: San Francisco. Pg 223. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
courage Posted June 7, 2016 On 25 December 2015 at 0:44 AM, Sallubrious said: Yesterday the fat man came and answered all my dreams for superficial machinations of digital machines So now I'm trying to define just what all that means Have I walked the earth in ignorance was it all just hopeful meaningless or blissful wasted time or was it spent all just spent on clichéd things that no-one can define Will all my prayers be answered will I one day paint it black or will the secrets all be revealed of Santa and his sack Will the Universe reveal itself Will I one day see the light Or will the gods that be reveal themselves I am the captain of my soul. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
courage Posted June 17, 2016 Ever since the dawn of time we remember a blameless act. There was no fault here, you cannot be sure of what you do not know. I worry myself, if we could not see, could it happen again? How could I ever trust the depths of my soul. What I trust lies in intention itself. What did we do for those who were not our own. What did we do as the very victim ourselves. I trust that, because I’m still here. My strength lies in courage, my resolve in pain is never again. God, do I forgive you, and here we are. This is more, and we have only just begun. I could never express the gratitude for those who had courage in their hearts, despite all adversities, despite the depths of our own guilt and hatred, I stand protected. I stand in you. That is the truth in trust itself, that is what takes me home. That is my home. So you see? I can’t be dead. You can’t be. Because I love you. You hear me? I love you. 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
courage Posted June 25, 2016 DISCLAIMER: for utilisation methods, nothing personal? a collar round my neck a chain to the earth i was head banging man metal to the death i spat in your face you fucking putrid race how dare you even gaze upon my face ill rape your daughters steal your soul and never forget I’m the oldest of old what you did forget is i had my permission you ransacked my house and stole all given raped our children and burned the earth when i died that day my god did that hurt the look in my eyes i stared at my tribe the creator itself my pains still alive my voice grew hollow my voice grew thin my life force left still not allowed in i will go on from triumph to pass let us never forget i walk this path 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
courage Posted July 4, 2016 Eve. Still feel the smile in your words, a memory I’ll never forget. Something that only grows stronger with the years, with eternity. Your words ring with reason, an intelligence that send me wild. My sensual desire sparks to see those thoughts move through your head, that brain of yours traveling through my blood. That brain of mine rushing with sex chemicals or whatever. Yet, I still see clear. I still see you. As I see me. Your youth, your beauty, our truth. You see with your eyes, yet it still hurts to drop your disguise. You hear with your ears, yet it still hurts, to face your fears. You carried your luggage, a solace you would care to forget. For in those bags you found my treasures, my gifts, my love for you. So please remember, do not be ashamed. That was our way, our trust, our care, our service. Now let it go, and embrace the twin flame reunion. Does the ocean pale when you go for a swim? Can you still hear the dolphins sing in your garden? Does your face pale when I stare into your eyes? Does our love ever die, even when not remembering? When I’m with the Earth, she’s my only one. I listen to her darkness, I listen to her truth, beauty, joy and love. I listen to her as all existence sinks into nothingness at the sound of her heart. That is my way. And here I am with you now. With no one else, not my father, not my son, not my mother, not my daughter. Just you. My one and only. Today I hear the hummingbird. The sweetest tune I ever heard. She says, I will see you today, you will be with me. So I wait. Today I hear the faerie queen, I beg for her mercy. End this today. So I wait. Today I hear my very soul, take me home I say. So I wait. Tomorrow I hear the Golden Dawn, here I come I say. And I wait. Today I hear my greatest love. I hear here dance, I hear her move, I hear her weep. I hear her coming, I hear her promise. So I wait. Please don’t break my heart. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
immanuel Posted September 13, 2016 (edited) If you walk in the sunshine you might curse the heat, Perhaps the sunblock you wear on your face, The mosquitoes, or the repellent, The burn on your skin, Or the polluted ozone If you walk on the Earth you might curse the grass, Itchy feet and stinky socks, She might curse you too, Manu, Manu! Let down your hair. Im fighting for my right but the world isn't fair. The other day I went to a swamp. The leeches, bacteria and maggots took a romp. Now that's a dirty picture! So I took a bath. The Earth said "S-Q-U-I!", and I laughed. One blocked their nose, another sighed in disgust. And the next day, my shame was high, but, I looked up, and what did I see? http://anonhq.com/breaking-news-meteor-impacts-offshore-queensland-earthquake-recorded-residents-terrified/ Edited October 27, 2017 by manu 2 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
immanuel Posted October 6, 2016 (edited) .. Edited November 6, 2017 by manu 1 Share this post Link to post Share on other sites