Ill try my best, a character whos name is "I" decided to take a small dose of subs over the weekend. I took about 4 freshly picked subs thinking it will be a mild dose, they were small not large. The ingestion took place at around 9pm or thereabouts, saying goodbye to two friends 30-40 minutes later the effects started to manifest themselves... I started to giggle and laugh because there was a sense of humour about everything, as I was waving goodbye I noticed the redish ceramic tiles on the driveway were in contrast to the dark coloured stains deposisted on them by the elements (and most likely from the cars parked in the driveway). Now I have taken mushrooms a couple of times in the past few years, so the feelings were recognized immediately... But I have never tripped alone in a room in almost complete darkness, this was a first time. I went around to the backyard to have a look at the cloudy and moon-lit sky, when I got to the back (which was quite dark to the normal eye) everything seemed to be slightly exposed (like the shutter left open in a camera to get more light in), other people might just say "everything looked bright" or "there were aura's around things" which are also good descriptions of how everything appeared. After recognizing the effects and acknowledging the fact that the mushrooms are doing their "magic" I went back inside and into my room, I had the computer on standby mode so I switched it on... the monitor was ultra bright so I switched it off. At that time I wasnt sure what I wanted to do, outside was cold... my toes were slightly freezing, I could not focus on reading a book (the sentences kept slipping away so I was constantly trying to find the sentences), music I didnt feel like putting on at the time, so there was one thing left to do, get in bed, get cozy, and start exploring my mind. I dimmed the bedside lamp and got a beanie and put that over my eyes to block out that dimmed light. The next part I can only say that I was in a meditative-like state, I will not go too deep into this because I feel I was shown things about myself and the fungus which was not designed to be told to anybody else. But I will give snippets of what occured which I think are suitable for discussion; It would have been very easy for me to just sink into a semi-conscious state and let myself be taken away into a hysteria of patterned imagery (which did occur at one stage) but I tried very hard to stay focused and concentrated, by doing so elements came in which were far more meaningful. Thoughts were no longer perceived as usual, they became visual phenomena which were shaped by the characteristics of the thought itself, this visual phenomena was manifesting itself in the mental space, the introspection I was performing with the help of the mushroom seemed to create a visual insight into the contents of my mind at least on a superficial "surface" level. I could sense my personality as a buffer or negotiator between the exterior world and the interior world we have within, I had a feeling that the personality was just a mask that the consciousness used in order to express itself with others, like an interface... and that people get identified with the "mask" or personality of others not realizing that the personality is only a function or tool that the consciousness uses to interact with other peoples consciousness. It's akin to a hub or a port, where certain procedures and agreements take place in order to dock the ship to the port, almost as if the personalities must successfully dock to one another in order to establish a positive link, so that the consciousness may express itself to the other consciousness using the personlity as a mode of interface. I became aware of patterns splitting and shattering into various spectrums of light, and upon opening my eyes the objects themselves seemed to be split up into the various spectrums of light. For a moment I thought that this is how I would perceive the world from now on... through this strange vision of the world, although rapidly this vision started to deteriorate and the objects started to condense back into solid objects leaving their previous perception as a fleeting memory. I closed my eyes once again and almost immediately my body felt heavy and distant, the feeling of separating myself from the physical body felt as if it was approaching, although shifting my awareness back to the body would serve as an anchor.. I was not able to fully escape the clutches of the physical vehicle to my knowledge but I was able to perceive some barren landscape (viewed from the perspective of being in flight, with mountain ranges underneath) that was inhabited by highly sophisticated creatures which had an oval shaped head with long bodies which appeared tentacle-like, the head was rather large and had blue lights on the back, the blue was similar to a neon glow. To me the blue neon glow was some type of propulsion device that the creature used to move around in the atmosphere. These creatures were not tiny but rather large, they appeared to be organic yet metallic to some degree. Time seemed to lose its "normal" sense, an hour felt like six, just ten minutes felt extremely dilated. Studying my hand it looked completely different than what it normally looked like. Although I did not feel any nasea I could feel the mushroom moving through the various stages of digestion, with some slight gastro discomfort, there was a relief when the mushroom was felt to be completely digested. There was alot that I left out because of not being able to explain it into words and because of some personal significance of those insights, there were some dark moments where I felt I was perceiving the darkside of this dualistic nature that we inhabit, but I was able to maintain stability throughout these feelings so that I was not propelled deeper into this darkness. There was a gradual feeling of the Psilocybin wearing off, thoughts lost their vivid expression, perception of reality seemed to organize itself back into its normal mode of operation, the body felt relaxed and back to its normal self (as I felt it took strange proportions during the experience). I have to mention that this was not necessarily a pleasant experience, the deliverance of these "insights" or rather hallucinations were not beautifully packaged, there was an overall sense of anxiety, confusion and creepy darkness to everything. I felt that even if one had a so-called pleasant experience on these that it was because of their ignorance to the iherent darkness of the experience. By this experiment I think I have stumbled upon the mechanics of how this fungus works on the mind, without this deeper introspection I think the true qualities of these mushroom are entirely ignored, it seems most ignore the primary effects these mushrooms have on the psyche and get completely gobbled up by the novelties of what they are seeing through their eyes. This is just my opinion but I think that Meditation and practices such as Yoga will bring about much clearer results, you have to work harder but the effort is worth it in the end. I have without a doubt concluded my experiments with this fungus at least for the time being.
Thats cool!
Nice shot :D