DMT: Uploading the Conciousness Worm

[reality pixie]

Recently having been inspired by the fact that this report has been well received at the Erowid Experience Vaults I thought I would post it here for anybody who hasnt managed to read it there :D

As seen on www.erowid.org :D :D

http://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=42167

 

This is a trip report a friend from overseas sent me.

Entheogen intake: Cannabis>LSD>Nitrous>DMT

We are listening to a CD by Shulman in the loungeroom. Its about 2300 and most of the house visitors have gone home. Finally the stifling effect of different energetic vibrations is replaced by a reflective quiet as the soothing and evocative sounds issue forth from the stereo and we allow the space to be lit by the entheogens eaten hours earlier.

There are three of us. Myself, my girlfriend Rusty and my friend ZZZ. Rusty and I have eaten strong acid and my friend Z has had 2 grams of Psilocybe cubensis. There are definite benefits in smoking DMT in conjunctions with oral tryptamines such as Psilocybin and LSD. For me one can use much less DMT and still work it and get very good results...as well, the DMT experience seems to linger longer when already the Psilocybin or Tryptamine is in the system.

As ZZZ and I talk random tripper talk Rusty walks into the loungeroom and quietly informs us that the CD by Shulman is her DMT music and I notice that she has her 'kit' for a DMT/Nitrous experience. As I watch, she has a mystical glow and I feel happy and safe in the knowledge that tonight she is bringing it through for the tribe, she is providing the space, the sacred healing energies. It is rare that rusty offers her magickal services and holds the space in a group sitting and Z and I are honoured to be experiencing it. The providing of the DMT experience and indeed for any sacred inebriant is an extremely powerful act. It can be an act of self empowerment and enlightenment for all involved or it can be a painful karmic burden and worse if it isn’t handled with respect.

R has loaded up a nitrous balloon for me and a cone of good smoke with a small pinch of DMT on it.

*** Most DMT I have seen varies between being a Dark Red Wax to Pure White Crystalline Shards. The more waxy and red the more miscellaneous alkaloids in the mix. This can make the smoke very thick and hard to smoke, but comes with the benefit of having more active smokeable tryptamines in the vapours. The less colour in the DMT the more pure it is. Crystalline White DMT can also turn yellow over time when exposed to air and heat; it is easier to smoke and a much cleaner experience as compared to the resiny waxy DMT.

Z will sit this experience out... Being tentative and relatively a newcomer to DMT having mostly smoked 'Changa' and will opt to just enter the space with nitrous.

** Nitrous is a Dissociative Tool. The use of nitrous in conjunction with tryptamines is beneficial for loosening the energetic body. The Nitrous is used to shunt the energetic body out of its fixed position and then with the tryptamine enhanced conscious thought the psychonaut can manoeuvre the energetic vehicle for soul flight.

I smoke the Laced Cone and as soon as I breathe out the smoke I begin inhaling the nitrous.

**I believe the secret to prolonging the effect of nitrous on the energetic body is through correct breathing techniques... Experimenting with regulating the amount of CO2, N20 and Air etc..

I experience a melting sensation as the combined tools work their magick and I descend into a cave of swirling psychedelic cartwheels...very much like the poster that moves through optical illusions. The experience is only what I call a Surface level experience.. I am experiencing vivid hallucinations with eyes closed and I am aware of myself being in an altered time/space environment where different laws of reality apply...however I am not fully engaged in the experience...and I am not THERE and you know when you get there.

As I am in the bulb space, I vaguely hear R smoke her DMT and start inhaling the nitrous. Energetically I feel a warmth emanating from where she is sitting and I notice her presence entering the bulb space.

I come to baseline fairly quickly though the lingering effects of spiritual cleansing are there.

Shortly after this experience I ask R if I could have a bigger dose. I start to pack myself a cone and Z pipes up and says that we have made him very curious and would like to try some. R smiles and says “of course” and I grab the vial of DMT and measure out the dose. Z looks at me wryly but with trust and says “Don't punish me to much” before adding “I don’t mean you” to me. I give him a good dose roughly 25-30 mg

***This should be all that is needed for an entry level dose from fairly pure DMT, with less pure Extraction the amount could be up to 100mg.

I watch Z smoke his cone and sink into the couch, I smile knowingly and start to prepare my cone. I haven’t been very comfortable in my relationship with DMT for a while it seems to me that with continued use, a psychonaut will undergo many transitions in their relationships with their Shamanic tools... Tonight, I think to myself, I’m going to make peace with the spirit molecule. I sprinkle a significant amount onto the cone piece... Roughly about 50mg. I smoke the DMT, eager to join Z in the tryptamine realms.

For this next part I will write in italics:

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The DMT comes on very subtle... There is no body load at all... On a very clear feeling of lightness and radiation beginning to spread from my solar chakra. I move very quickly through the early stages of DMT ascension... The veils of various realities peeling back very much like the chrysanthemum which is so highly regarded in DMT literature... And then I am there.

Where is here???

I see 4 blocks that have symbols inscribed on them...the blocks are made of a type of black gold. That is, it is black but also it is gold. The blocks are flaming and spinning in circular formation in an anti-clockwise direction. I watch as they all spin and click together in the form of a cross it forms a small rectangle opening in the middle which is black with gold running through it. Guarding the configuration i notice an eagle and a lion at two of the corners and I realise that they are 2 of the Elemental Archangels as talked about in western mysticism. When the blocks click together the back ground flames up and I feel like I have reached perfection. I realise this is the LOGOS that is so talked about in Gnostic and other paths. As I start to lose my objective view, the blocks begin to issue forth other blocks in complex spiralling emanations that vaguely resemble the merkabah and they fractal out in different patterns based on combinations of symbols. I try to stop the fractal of the LOGOS from spinning out of control and for a brief while I maintain the original 4 in perfect harmony. The intensity, however, is pushing me beyond this point and moves me down a spiral of coded blocks and I am then in a place.

I can still hear the psychedelic music in the background however it is now a tool of the tryptamine awareness. I am in a space which is made up of the spongy green/yellow energy that I mostly see under bulbs and DMT... It is a pliable background of tactile energy... And in this situation I sit back as a definite presence uses this tactile energetic interface to basically put on a show for me while it uses the energy of the psychedelic music coming from the stereo. After that the trip moves upward and outward and I am now suspended in the void and it feels like I am straddling the space. There is a thick cord of yellow/green energy which is inseparably plugged into what is usually the back of my head and there is also the sensation that I am plugged in at my back and where my arms and legs are. I feel like I have been here forever. There is a powerful, constant surge of highly concentrated energies being exchanged here. And a voice tells me that I am a hub, a focal point of consciousness energies and evolutionary force.... I notice in the distance that there are junction points which are blue balls...but I am unable to think of moving.... The site is to bizarre...the reality much to real and I have never seen this before... Maybe next time...

After seemingly being in the String suspension world for eternity... I begin the descent...and I am am spiralling down a Crystal Shaft and then I am back in my body.

I turn to my friend who looks at me and I say 'Did you see it??'

Thoughts on the Experience

While I have read my fair share about the Qaballah and its correlations it has never been a system to which I really devoted much time on. So it is interesting that I would have the experience described. After this experience I spoke to friends, one of them is studying an honours in theology and mysticism and they gave me the Golden Dawn and Enochian Magick books to look at.

The 4 blocks which are inscribed with symbols in the beginning (Probably what is called Angelic Language) Could be seen as what is know in the Qaballah as the “Tetragrammaton” or the 4 lettered word of God. YHVH. At the centre of the 4 is what is referred to by the Golden Dawn as the 'tomb of Christian Rosenkrutz' which really is an allusion to the Ark of the Covenant. When the 4 are put together it allows access to the Universal Mainframe. The Machine Code of All creation.

DMT and the Machine Code.

DMT is the backdoor programme, the interface between the living world and the machine. It is very much like the matrix and where they plug into a computer...the DMT is plugging us into the computer.

At the Centre of the Tetragrammaton is the Ark. The ark is the input device. After some thought on the matter..

The Machine Code and Enochian Magick.

If one takes a brief look at enochian magick we see that the principals act on the assumption that the Qaballah is the primary system. The universe is deconstructed into 4 Corners which is then divided into squares...each of the squares is inscribed. The symbols when arranged in different combinations are said to Invoke the Godform or Archetype associated with the rank of the deity or godform or Energetic Awareness. On the squares are godforms which seem to go in random directions over the tablet if the tablet is presented in 2D on paper view. However if one were to form the pieces in 3D space they would form spiral blocks.

My belief is that the LOGOS in the form of Tetragrammaton is the portal of the mainframe. The universal machine. The Qaballah allows us to understand the machine. The DMT gives us access to the machine. Hebrew and Sanskrit and Arabic are all obviously stylised from the Angelic Language that are inscribed in the firmament as Tetragrammaton.

The Ark of the covenant or the tomb of Christian Rosenkrutz is the Energetic Input Device through which we Enter Energetic Search Strings for Particular Machine Code in the Sum of Creation. Qaballah and Enochian Magic may reveal to us the Particular Search Strings that are required to be entered into the Ark so that particular feats of Magick Can be Accomplished.

The Experience in the Tactile Spongy green energetic space was “1 on 1” time between myself and the tryptamine awareness, a basic how’s it going and a performance... It danced with the spongy background and with the Shulman CD... It was the private personal lesson of the experience.

The Experience of being suspended in space is possibly really where I am and what I am made of. Floating truly in a sea of infinity...connected to my tactile world through connections with other people. The forces running through me are the forces that run through us all and bind us to this thread of existence... It is the matrix of creation and the very base level where we realise that it truly is an illusion. The Void.

The descent down the quartz crystal is new to me and seems to be a typical theme in many shamanic soul flight experiences... Particularly it seems the aboriginal beliefs of seqld and NNSW had a lot of mythology around Quartz crystals and Soul flight.

Thanks for reading.

Any comments appreciated. Any insights into deconstructing and properly utilising the machine code the, please feel free to contact me.

[Gunter]

Fascinating how the compounds evocate the ontology in an empirical way, I think they do this for any belief system. It is neat that during the psychedelic experience the mind seeks to explain what it is experiencing in terms of previous stimulus and knowledge.

I like how the content of the mind becomes suggestive content in the experience. Even more interesting is that beliefs that the subject is not normally amenable to in a suggestive way, but still entertains as possibilities, become taken as realities during the experience.

To me the truth revealed pertains to the relationship of truth to belief and the role of suggestive ontological evocation in the psychedelic experience.

[Rev]

It is neat that during the psychedelic experience the mind seeks to explain what it is experiencing in terms of previous stimulus and knowledge.

Having had intense experiences of a comparable nature catalysed with either strong LSD or DMT involving preparations on several occassions i tend to think that what we are experiencing may be the view of existence with the best fidelity

Rather than seeing our experience as an interpretation where our mind invokes learned imagery

i honestly feel that what we are seeing is reality and that the mystical imagery, the stylised alphabets, the numerical relationships are the real underlying forces behind the construction of consciousness and the universe

These have been partially captured and instituted as religious iconography.

what we see as religion is a veil separating us from the original, a cheap imitation of it

often archaic symbols and elements of the 'angelic language' have been stolen as standards

examples incude crosses, swastikas, pyramids

even the very nature of the realm influences our core mystical traditions and economy

I have seen streets paved with gold and gems, cities built of bricks of gold

and in teh real world since ancioent times man has sought to find the material incarnatiosn of these celestial materails as gold and precious metals, in precious gems and textiles like silk dyed in lustrous colours

The idea of the angelic language is the most mysterious of all for me however as i have seen it on SO MANY occassions. Its a source script from which all symbols, letters and numbers derive. Prone to be found encoding the petal of an unfurling phosphene lotus bloom, embedded in flesh. or as mckenna said ' like jewelled self dribbling basketballs'

Sometimes it appears so uncanily like arabic, hebrew, early chinese or sanskrit that i swear it is - till i look closer and can see well enough that its is related but more complex than any of them, yet there seems a veil that makes me unable to actually make out the true form of the letters

i really think what is being seen here is the real reality and that human culture started when we evolved to the state where we could access this deeper layer of complexity, and from this wellspring we brought forth our written languages, our mathematics and our religious iconography. Humanity at large relearning how to access this wellspring is the crux of the archaic revival, everything old is new again

now we understand mor about physics, about matter, about maths and the mind we get a second chance, a double dip

[Gunter]

If you didn't believe it was true, it would not be effective evocation.

Your notions seems to me to reinforce the idea of evocation and its role in allowing suggestive content to manifest as experiential truth. Truth of course only being that which is believed through the validation of perception, not as independent reality.

I think that what is occurring is a projection of human aspects onto the universe as a way of reconciling our place within that universe. Sort of like a psychedelic version of making God in the human image, the very notion of angelic script indicates this. We want to come to understand the universe in terms of intelligence, and we assume on a subconscious level that language and writing is an integral part of this.

We are so tied into our senses that we grant them a form of power, and when the alteration of the senses occurs that power is still there. We approach reality from a seeing is believing point of view, and when we experiencing the psychedelic state we then continue this notion into believing that what we have seen is real.

However my point of view is that we cannot perceive reality, that ultimately our senses are distractions from reality and that no alteration of them constitutes a form of perceptual transcendence.

This also relates to the flawed dichotomy of mind and machine, or body as it were. A notion propagated since before the time of Plato (whom I abhor). And this also ties into the concept of other. We elevate the sacred to a position of other, and in doing so create a division between the sacred and the mundane.

These two notions, the body/soul dichotomy and other, take the place of fundamental assumptions that are due to their being present in our social programming and construction.

From this point of view, the ideas that we exist in some form independent of our bodies, and that the sacred is other, we can re-examine the epiphanies of the psychedelic state and see how it is theoretically possible for these fundamental assumptions to shape our ontology. However from the view that there is no other outside of perception, and there is no dichotomy between body and soul, then we can realize that the experiences described are not exogenous in nature, but rather come from within the person themselves and may constitute introspective confrontation with foundational concepts that we are not normally conscious of.

Views such as those expressed in the report are not immune to the same questions and problems that plague organized religion including those pertaining to the nature of subjective experiences and diversity.

I do not mean to undermine the value though of these epiphanies. You see truth and delusion are identical when they are perceptually validated. More important than the question of external reality becomes the question of how our perceptive reality shapes our beliefs, and how our beliefs shape our actions. Given this my questions about the experience are mainly concerned with the results, how the person can integrate such knowledge into their daily life, and how such beliefs are accessible in a constructive and productive way.

To me what is reported is no more or less true than any religious experience no matter what it is.

Having had my own experiences with psychedelics and having examined entheogenic use from the perspective of ontological evocation, particular in shamanic application, I feel that for myself at least this analysis provides a productive foundation for the use and application of the psychedelic experience in constructive and therapeutic ways that are both ambiguous and powerfully so, thus mandating a degree of responsible use.

I do not expect to convince, but rather to share this perspective. I realize there are many aspects of it that may not be clear and to understand it not as truth but as a perspective requires a certain degree of background knowledge in a similar way to how background knowledge and beliefs are integral aspects of the psychedelic experience.

[Salviador]

My personal experience of mysticism recently has been a battle of belief. I find the more i read and experience about the power of mysticism (for lack of a better word), the more i read about scientific studies that attribute these experiences to internal beliefs rather than some objective method to affecting reality.

My current standing on the issue is that you can unlock this tetragramatron which represents a way of paging your unconsicous and communicating with your social, cultural and physical programming, however this has no effect on the outside world, outside of your improved relationship and grasp with the social world.

The biggest thing in my way i suppose, is the fact that despite the numerous methods that purport to teach you ways of controlling your reality, no examples of people who are visibly weilding this majic exist.

Its all youre own stuff, and you work through it the best way you can. The tetragramatron is a very direct way of addressing and observing your core makeup, which is probably pretty similar to everyone elses, but you cant impact of physical reality because the laws of physics are much more direct ways of impacting on them.

[Gunter]

Very cool!!

I am a skeptical believer, I cannot ascertain if the things (like psychic/tele-empathic phenomena) I have experienced are outside of my head, though I have shared them. There is something going on that I can't really put into words. I can feel the sacred now as I consider it and it is overwhelming and wonderful, but is it in my head? Does it matter? I have what I ant to call the knowledge that there is only one thing, and we are all connected as it, and part of it. Everything is the same, everything is alive and the only thing that changes as empirical manifestation is scale. Its fractacular, to use a word that came out of my mouth while at a campfire one summer night.

Marcus Aurelius said if you have a complaint to change your opinion, I think that's a bit funny but relevant too.

Since we have only perception, and perception is related to within, then if we change something within us, we change what is outside of us in a way, not like we affect reality, but shaping how we approach it has almost the same affect as changing it. This is cool as that psychedelics (or even meditation/alternative spiritualities) allow us to access ourselves in ways that are not ordinarily possible, or that we don't normally have waking access to.

I find something wonderful in the tetragrammaton myself, I believe it is an Icaro and its correct pronunciation is melodic. I have an experience that gave me a melody based on it, Yambwayka is the closest spelling to the sound of the word, the melody cannot be conveyed in text. Ka of course related to Egyptian word for soul, but I did not consciously construct this word/melody, it would not leave my head and would not let me ignore it. As a skeptic I believe it is just in my head, but as a believer I feel connected to something, everything and when I am connected I don’t consider that it could be in my head, the way it feels and the things allows are constructive, enriching, and worth it even if they are just the products of my mind.

In any hallucinogenic or sacred experience, the real power is that of the mind, the entheogens or sacred aspects just give us access to that power, at least that is my belief.

[Rev]

Inside or outside we are all made of the same stuff, the universe and i

and conform to the same rules of existence

I am willing to accept a degree of anthropomorphism of the other levels of reality because they too will be affected by the mathematics of the universe that relate to paradigms that allow existence , by that i generally mean

" the class of all items that can be substituted into the same position (or slot) in a grammatical sentence (are in paradigmatic relation with one another)"

http://www.wordreference.com/definition/paradigm

Take the lotus or chrysanthemum pattern

Hindu mythology mentions the cosmos being like a lotus bloom

maybe it ultimately is

from our solid state baseline perspective we have no way of telling the ultimate dimensions or structure of the cosmos

and maybe the pattern in the underlying mathematical substrate that is exploited by the DNA of the lotus plant is also the same ultimate pattern that emerges from the workings of the cosmos

It may seem somewhat heretical to the dogma of modern scientists that this is a real possibility, but since we discovers chaos and the recurring patterns in nature and continue to find them everywhere

mushrooms, ferns, chrysanthemums, the octopoid fractal arms

i think it lends some weight to speculation that the world we think we imagined actually imagined us

Edited November 18, 2005 by Rev

[Gunter]

Sometimes I think people project aspects of humanity onto other things including the universe.

I don't believe that math exists outside of our minds, to me our number system is extremely flawed as a way to describe the universe, but that is another somewhat somplex topic.

Kuhn coined the word 'paradigm' and it is interesting to see new definitions emerge. Thanks for the link.

I do believe that all religious notions are constructs of humanoity and thus only have value in a certain context. However I believe the universe existed before us, and will after we have long since faded away. I want to avoid any teleology that considers human (or any specific form of life/nonlife) existence as a culmination of existence.

[reality pixie]

Belief is irrelevant when confronted by the enormity of existence

[Gunter]

Belief is irrelevant when confronted by the enormity of existence

As a belief unto itself that statement is self refuting.

[mesq]

If thats what you believe ;)

[Gunter]

If thats what you believe ;)

If thats what you believe I believe.