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Exactly what me and my mum did today Also got one of those multi grafted apple trees with 3 varieties. Weve been informed by my grandfather that usually one will take over and produce much more but its still looking good.

Yeah stonewolf its just fucking nuts how easy it is to get opiates that can become such a problem, but for some of us getting somthing so much more benificial like weed is a nightmare. Every person I talk to about this now is starting to see the pharmalogical conspiracy of keeping people hooked on opiates for maximum profit. Even my doctor who is a fan of codiene for pain relief said that the mounting problems of young people, particularly people who are non drug savy, getting hooked on nurofen plus and the like is a social nightmare. Its growing and growing as sometimes these are the only things we can get to numb the pains of life, but they are only temporary and make it so much worse in a sneaky slow way that creeps up on us and eventually gets us in the sleeper hold so we cant escape. Careful with the poppy wash but breaking that pill poppin cycle will be a big step to healing, esspecially since poppin a pill is easy but making some tea in the way needed is quite a bit more effort.

I think the guys they caught didnt do to bad at putting up an arguement, but I would have loved to see them catch some people I theoretically know who pick and would have made the cops look like idiots with their knowledge. Who knows, these guys may have given some better arguments to show that they did really know what they were doing but could have been edited out.

How could johny do any wrong? Hes so little and cute with those fluffy eyebrows and that pissweak demeanor. I think the apparent weakness he displays makes people feel safer about him, he never appears overtly cunning or malicious, hes just poor lil john whos been working so hard to become the leader for so long.

Yes PLEASE keep us updated, this is the best thread Ive seen for ages. Hopefully the practical knowledge you gain will be able to be used by others in things like community projects and the like.

Haha I just got one of those in the thread above, and yeah just for fun as I have no idea what it is. After reading about the long spined scop Im overjoyed to realise I got one the other week from bunnings thinking it was just another pach but darker! Had a sneaking suspicion it wasnt! I recon that one in your first post Prophet is a spach too, doesnt look like the huasca I have, not as dark and the spination isnt as thick and long.

Sorry for the hijack, just as a message of hope Id like to say. If you need help from parents or doctors it may not always turn into a nightmare. This morning everything built up and I had a mental meltdown and told my parents everything Ive been ingesting and how Ive been wanting to kill myself. I was expecting anger as my parents are anti-drugs but all I got was support. Got taken to my doctor in a writhing state of crying and shivering and now Im able to quit work and be on disability payments to try and recover . I even told my strict christian mother about my love of fungus and seeds as well as mary jane and she didnt go off at all, didnt even tell me to stop, just all loving support. We even had a laugh that she didnt know about any of this stuff even though Id go inside stoned quite a bit to play with my dogs. She did however mention that it was obvious I was on acid after a recent event when I tried to talk to her and I was making no sense and smelled like piss. It may not always turn out this angelicly but yeah, asking for help isnt always the nightmare it seems and can be an amazing experience.

I had a chat with a really good friend tonight. This friend of mine is always extremely busy but spent hours with me talking about my problems and helped me realise that my drug use isnt the problem I need to solve, its my life thats the problem. He helped me to see that I am currently living a lifestyle that is totally self destructive before the drugs even come into it. Now I look at it I cant beleive I am doing it, it makes no sense and is ridiculous. The only reason I binge on opiates and amphetamines is because I am doing a job that I cant cope with and doesnt fit with my personality at all. Its destroying me and turning me into the monster I see in my nightmares. I am now going to quit my job immediately and begin the real repair work. This quote comes to mind from someone else important in my life who my friend in question reminds me of a great deal "what good is it if a man gains the whole world but loses his soul?"

lol I totally concur with the giving up everything part is too hard. I havent had any green for 3 days and now Im plastered on opiates and feeling aweful. I think opiates are very important to kick, they cause too much shit. Theyre so comforting though, oh the dilema. I swore Id never take any pharms again after an OD not long ago and now Im back using them to dull the pain. Fucking life!

Yeah maccas and BK are terrible, both have given me strange feelings that hint at added chemical components to get one hooked. Even subway has put me off for that same glove reason mentioned, and the high prices. Now when I want fast food I get some pumpkin seeds, sunflower seeds and almonds, mix in a ziplock baggie and wallah! No lethargy or sickness and these days my eyes seem brighter too Thanx to Bacchus for the almond idea too, it really adds to it to make it feel like a real meal, and settles my stomach acid problems wonderfully

Start slow, chug fresh juices, herbal teas, water. Dont be upset when you fail. Ive been trying to do this for over a year and a half, and most of it felt like failures, but looking back it makes a massive difference. Ive gone from eating maccas everyday, chocolate everyday, sugary drinks and anything bad including massive doses of pharma pills, to now eating mainly good food, drinking loads of water and tea and feeling MUCH better. I still have off periods where I go suicidal and pop pills like mad and eat entire blocks of chocolate but like a good friend of mine once said, big problems are like eating an elephant, its entirely possible but just has to be one mouthful at a time. Oh yeah, had big kicks forward lately with some SUBstancial supplimentation.

I have no answer for you but *hugs* man and Im thinking of you right now

Lol dam, I remember doing boiler refits with my dad and hauling out trailer loads of copper pipe of all different sizes. Think all the old boilers have been converted to the new kit ones now tho

Another useful khat health tip is to keep goats away from it. Mine is lopsided now after a fence jumping incident Also had some major new growth with some charlie carp and seasol mix.

I havent tried smoking brug, but I have some ideas that I got about brug after having some atropine nasal spray today. This may just be delusional ranting but I will add it anyway. I feel brug is a very powerful feminine spirit, and if your attitudes towards the feminine of our species isnt totally pure then she will find this extremely offensive and want to teach you some respect. Also got a lot of this idea from a report IndigoSunrise did, think the thread is called "Brug report for ballzac" or something similar. This theme seems to run with a lot of the trip reports Ive read on erowid, with the temptress tempting the man into showing his true colours towards women then threading him to pieces when his impurity rears its head. Apothecary also said something recently about using choline containing plants like borage as a safeguard, to have there to quickly ingest just incase things suddenly spiral out of control, dont know if this has been put to practise yet though. Just my 2 cents, for my first ever plant experience I had HBWR (where legal) and it was gentle, kind, loving and taught me so much. Very very full on but still it was all positive (even the staying awake till 7am staring at my alarm clock in total ectasty). For a less full on experience Id recommend mushrooms though, they were even gentler and very caring too, but of course everyones different so it may just be that you need to start slow and find what you are comfertable with. Blessings to you for desiring knowledge and love