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I've always been a pretty big individual and sometimes get upset inside myself for they way society and people act and think i.e how they can be so cruel to people and uncaring for the environment etc, I've also always been a pretty outdoorsy person from growing up on a farm and regularly hiking camping etc. I'm not sure if that has a lot to do with it but after watching 'Into the wild' I was totally moved and captivated by the though of what he did, and have set myself the goal at some point in life to just take some time out from society and live self sufficient on say an island or in the bush. I think by doing this - I wouldn't feel so dependent on our modern world - I would learn more about myself - I would see so much more beauty in nature instead of taking it for granted - I would ultimately become a much more interesting and better person. I am currently a student and love the course that I am doing so I see this happening some time in the future, yet I still have the urge to get away from it all now and again so have been thinking of a journey. I live now in Sydney for my course, and though that I would like to build myself a kayak which I have always had the urge to do and is a goal of mine (I have the plans) and would like to kayak over a week or so from further up the Hawksbury river down back to Sydney (maybe Windsor?) I'll see how it goes and need to find a place to build the kayak etc but I definitely have the urge bad...\ Anyone else moved by this movie? Anyone taken the steps to get away from everything for a while - how was it? Anyone been down the Hawksbury recently?

Heya, so was walking through Bondi the other day and spied two cactus in a small flower shop, closer inspection found the labels calling them 'San Pedro' and what little I knew of cactus classification seemed to suggest they were. I bought the smaller but sexier of the two in a moment of spontaneity as I had been planning to get some soon anyway. Being a little paranoid with my first precious I just wanted to know if the any of the marks on it were of worry? Also people's thoughts on whether it would be better for me to cut and grow several plants instead of one single one (I plan to repot regardless)? Btw it is around 50cm tall at present. Regards <img> http://farm5.static.flickr.com/4040/5125516726_16f01d930f.jpg </img> <img> http://farm2.static.flickr.com/1343/5125525182_026f769d93.jpg </img> <img> http://farm5.static.flickr.com/4129/5125529118_64b2c541b7.jpg </img> <img> http://farm5.static.flickr.com/4036/5125529124_8c939d4679.jpg </img> <img> http://farm2.static.flickr.com/1243/5125529130_362d67eecd.jpg </img>

Thanks for the quick relies guys. I will obviously have a look around for more info but as a general idea - what kind of sizes should I cut this 50cm piece into? And mac you mentioned a 'good rich cactus mix' - any suggestions mate? Peace and thanks

Hey, just wondering if anyone in Sydney (the closer to Inner West the better) has some Trichocereus Pachanoi that I could buy some cuttings from? Regards

I think this would be cool too but like a garage with a roller door (if it had toilet and shower - kinda common from where im originally from- up here not so much it seems) I can put up with the cold and tend to prefer it seeing as I am a redhead

I have been living in Sydney now for around a yeah and have had a few places, I currently am living in the Inner West which is great cause it's a pretty happening place but best of all I can ride my bike to tafe and also to my art course I just picked up. I currently rent a room from a guy and like where I am living, but because of my art really feel the need to find a new place i.e. a live in studio. Cruising around the city you see so many places that look like they are run down and boarded up that would be awesome and are just going to waste - does anyone know how to find out who owns such places and has anyone ever been in a situation where they have maybe talked to people that owned a place like that and worked out a deal to live there? I just think there are so many cool places that a going to waste that I think it would be in the owners best interest to have someone in there at least maintaining the place kinda thing. Also a shoutout if anyone does know any cheap studio setups/warehouse spaces that are livable i.e. have amenities let me know Also cool shots if anyone has of places they have lived especially real unusual places (I was talking to my mate about this the other day and he was telling me how his mate rented a place in Surry Hills and to get to it he had to go through a bank and to the top of the building where he rented a studio that was like the old elevator cable shed and his bed was right underneath these old unusued like 3 tonne elevator pulleys- kinda cool I thought) so if anyone has cool pics of living places chuck em up too.

ha ha diggn the fireman pole, can we have a room full of cushions and beanbags?

Heres some older paintings of mine - mainly done for experimentation.

Thanks for all the info - yeah a lot of my thoughts were confirmed. Thanks for the links Botanika - I actually love moreso the run down looking ones and industrial ones. Love to see that vid too Andyamine.

Yeah cheers mate- I always dream of finding a run down warehouse with wooden floorboards, big floor to ceiling warehouse windows and open plan with massive wooden sleepers all the way through - Perfect.

Hey so I think this is the right place for this? So just to warn you if you have unsuspectingly stumbled on this post that be prepared for a rant. I don't really know what exactly I am going to be saying and I guess that's the problem. So mainly I am just confused about life and possibly maybe scared like worried about finding contentedness. I would like to think of myself as being strong willed, determined and when I put my mind to something; can make it happen and I guess it's through those traits that I have always felt confident in the fact that whatever I do in life I will be successful at it....what happened to make that disappear recently? I guess the fact is that I am 'becoming my own person' i.e. I moved out of home (country) around three years ago after finishing school to continue studies (city), have recently turned vegan and have started to develop my own kind of opinions on things instead of assuming my parent's. I am very passionate about things if I believe in them and feel I have a strong set of principles that I gauge both people and life by. I am goal orientated and always saw myself as having the dream home, a collection of cars, a financially stable position blah blah blah. Recently my goals have all changed and I think it is because of my design studies and I have felt a huge sadness at how materialistic people have become at such an expense to the environment, I feel myself sickened at times by societies ignorance and self appreciation etc. I guess my main clarity is required in regards to what I want to do in life, I thought I wanted to be a designer and have moved on to wanting to be an artist mean whilst I still want to achieve so many other personal goals i.e. start a family, yet ultimately I want to leave my mark in history and do something that will be remembered (slightly egotistic but mmmm). In addition to those personal goals and urges I have a MASSIVE urge to go somewhere and help people especially in 3rd world countries by building infrastructure, relationships helping set up orphanages, looking after sick people etc... I guess I feel like I have to pick one or the other in a way and if I pick say like starting a family I cant really do the other humanitarian things I want to do. If I was to go the humanitarian way - how would I get started, i.e. what do I have to offer? I really would like to help people .....just forgot what I was saying....I guess after typing this out if I was to go do the humanitarian thing there is ways I could do the other things i.e. start a family overseas, and my other personal goals could be achieved from over there i.e. write a book etc mmmmmm I'm confused and if anyone reads this I'm sure they will be too ha ha Anyone have links or experiences starting orphanages or doing work overseas or nationally?

Cheers guys, all of the advice has been really helpful. Anyone done soupkitchens/volunteering and stuff in Sydney perchance - before I do my own research?

True, true, I do definitely feel that too and used to get out bush a fair bit when I lived back in the country - maybe that's what I need? Sometimes I feel I want to escape society but now I'm thinking I just need to change societies kinda think i.e. places like 3rd world countries where the focus is on relationships and surviving instead of what car you drive and the clothes you wear, and people who rely on the land instead of just take it for granted.

Heya, Im am new to Sydney and would love to go hunting, so if anyone would like some company and to teach me the ropes, it would be greatly appreciated.

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Um just wondering what other people's experiences in relation to tantra are? I feel like I have kind of an interest in it after looking into hypnosis exercises involving charkras.

Love to hear of your experiences with chakras, and how was the material you referred to ^, any other recommendations?

Not sure if this complies, but I've been kinda putting a portfolio together to get into tattooing, last time I went around the criticism was I needed more pictures involving shading so have been putting some together. So what I did was trace the main lines in existing tattoo pictures and then shaded them accordingly so therefore I cannot claim they are 100% original? criticism appreciated

When I get out of the shower, I always put my socks on first - I don't know why I do it but it makes me laugh heaps. Nakey with ma socks onnnnnnnnn ooo yeah

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I was today walking casually along the streets of Newtown blissfully taking in the sun which is a big thing for me as I have red hair. As I chatted away with a fellow traveler and we pasted the Enmore Theatre I noticed out of the corner of my eye a familiar and humourous blur that reeked of eclectic funk, caught in the daze of conversation and probably by this point sunstroke I traveled 3 more paces before I stopped and squeeled in delight at the realization of my discovery which was confirmed when I ran back - the master of bass guitar LES CLAYPOOL is coming to play DEC 2 Is there anyone else out there who is cleaning their pants when they discovered this? I tried to find a pic of the poster thet had up - looked pretty cool I thought but couldn't find it online

Ha ha dedication, I'm a poor student so just the Enmore gig for me. Should be a cracker he always has like trippn sets and stuff and his talent is beyond belief can't wait. I'm interested to know who he is playing with - haven't checked.

Just interested in finding out if anyone on here is into or does hypnosis as well? If been reading and studying at home for quite some time and the things that can be achieved through hypnosis are quite extraordinary and also can be quite fun. Some of the things I found out when studying include: - The amazing ability for one to heal themselves through hypnosis and self hypnosis compared to taking drugs etc - The awesome power of one to travel through their mind - Think it's pretty cool that with regular training one can teach their mind to be better i.e. ask to remember dreams, set your internal clock to wake you whenever, remember past memories etc - The increase in senses one can achieve with deep hypnosis (somnambulism) i.e. being able to tell what picture a person is looking at by viewing the reflection in their eyes, memorising chapters of books for study... - Anesthetic - can be hypnotised to feel no pain for drugless surgery etc. - Training yourself to become a better person i.e. setting goals, fixing flaws - Fun and games you can play with willing and trusting mates. - Relaxation - Becoming a better lover i.e. helping partner to achieve one hour orgasm, tantric stuff, advanced shit so hectic ha ha - So much chances are hypnosis can help in some way I found it quite interesting that there is this whole kind of 'battle' between traditional psychology a hypnotherapy as they and that there is a constant use of propaganda and smearing to disgrace hypnosis (otherwise it would be more widely accepted and used) - very similar to mind opening plants etc, I think in a way they on the same level in what they can achieve. My first use of hypnosis was a fair while ago when I did some exercises with stinkmeat and kind of took him on a journey in his mind to test some theories and stuff, some of it didn't work cause i didn't plan it well and lacked mainly confidence but some of it did and stinkmeat said it was strange and unusual and a fairly pleasant experience overall. I am happy to say now that I am definitely better and more confident in my practices yet still urge to get better. I am now waiting till I get into another relationship with a girl(obviously trust and an understanding of each other is important) so I can put some of the newer stuff into practice... I would love to here if others practice or have had any encounters and experience with hypnosis etc I will say one more thing if anyone is skeptical they should definitely put aside their reservations and actually have a read of media on the internet in support of hypnosis and decide for themselves.

sounds like a good idea could really prove to be a unique selling point (USP) for her if she was to promote it or yeah just keep it subtle and unadvertised - either way

yeah that's a good one spudamore just a cycle '...with every touch feel the relaxation spread throughout you and as you do feel it healing deeper and deeper and as it does you feel more and more relaxed' etc