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so who watched it ? what was the un-story?

i wholeheartedly agree with you j.. cept i like to call them 'daemons', thus removing any christian connotations, they have been around a lot longer then christ after all ;-) however, this missionary zeal must not lead to blind faith or "totally fucking up without even realising it" and whilst i see there as being real possibility in the future of entheogens being utilised legally within western spciety, i feel that it is a progressive movement and a jump to the extreme of LEGALIZE DMT NOW, or ACT LIKE DMT IS LEGAL is almost contradictory to the motive/intent. even though acting as though u are ur own law maker has worked well for me thus far, i dont know if i could hold onto it if i let it stretch too far :-)

awesome post!! .street drug with some of the somalian refugees maybe. but is ther really that many people growing/using khat? and isnt it about as potent as a good cup of coffee? WTF how about the real street drugs, petrol huffing, aborignal populations living in third world conditions???

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has anyone else been experiemnting with using different characteristics of individal plants, to blend said characteristics for a specifically desired outcome? anyone know if this happens in its traditional setting? personally i have found that combining multl dfferent strains in different amounts, or even jsut randomy combining them, can be uite rewarding and enjyable... lk a bunch of sentient beings utilising another sentint bng to have a rare 're-union and eldds council'.

seriously, a multi milliondollar film crew couldnt ewven hope to re-create how magick that day was... it was sooo surreal like i was actually still dreaming and had jsut woken up into a dream of immense faerytale beauty.....

some pixies i know managed to walk around picking mushrooms every second day for a month or two druing peak season, finding around 2kg (dry) over the season with very little efforst. soe other pixies then came along and gave tghe dried mushrooms out for free at various pychedelic events..... (dressed as mushrooms nonetheless) bellingen had by far and wide he biggest aubensis population, diversity and distribution i have ever had the pleasure of experiencing. i remember walking through paddocks in the ewarly morning mist with two gorgeous young commune girls whom were topless and using their dresses as baskets to carry the harvest. (i bizarrly liek i was in some pre 60s flower power/indigo children/psychedelic wonderland documentary) there were so man that they had the practice of only ever picking the mushrooms that were bolbous and had only just broken their veil.... giving them a couple of flicks and then splitting the stem four ways over the top of the cap so when they dried they looked like cute little blue starfish/octopus. if u cant find a gorgeous young hippy girl or a trashy rave party or a cubensis packed paddock.. then ur not in bello hehehe

this is what i was hinting at earlier re "my claim to fame", but thats where terrence mckenna steps up. beng a global key spokesperson for entheogens may create somekind of infamy in the future....(but personally theres so much going on all over the world who nkows if it will be that important an aspect of our current and future history to warrent too larger a mention)

agree wholeheartedly i agree this was my issue, but as also noticed i said "when i first met you". i was using it as an example of how folks whom dont know you that well may well feel a similiar sence of intimidation/dominated energetics. i disagree with this.... if ur ballsing up and doing somethign you really believe with and intend to do so whenever it you feel the need to break the law inthe name of personal freedom and beliefs, whats cowardice about covering ones ass if u intend to do so in the future. i think the issue here is that its not just covering ones own ass, its covering the ass of the collective... and i dont know about you, but i have firm commitments to protecting my friends and family from any threats that may be represented by my own personal beliefs and entheogenic activism. IF all i had to worry about was my own safety and well being then im sure i would have done some incredibly drastic things over my life, far beyond my involvement with entheogens.... i dont have a personal fear of death or punishment, i have a fear of how my death or sufferring would effect my friends and loved ones (family particularly).

just curious if folks are researchng/recprding the specific plants utilised ceremony, and even those which have been selectivly propagated by the indigenous peoples? just seems it would go hand in hand with the botanising of the species as a whole.

one of the last nails in the coffin for my 8mg a day rivotril prscrition was som rather embarassing occurrences of amnesia, sleep walking/talking (urinating) as well as an early morning fog whereby i would rgularly start going about my day naked and half awake.... the mood and memory stuff was my primary initiative to begin withdrawals, but the increasing severe 'black outs' on a night out with the friends and a few vry embarassing and potntially dangrous occurrences late in the piece signed the 8 mth withdrawals contract. i found the story of the kickboxer re-arranging the neighbours living room/wall hangings rather humerous i must say!

I think this is perhaps your saving grace, the lifestyle of the wondering sage, whom may go through periods of abundance and may have to whether incredibly torurous injustices/hard times..... but this lifestyle is testament to yourself (and others whom live like you) arent in it for 'material' gains, but if they were then youd know about it.. because theres a fuckload of resonant energy out there as a result of the work. i sincerely hope that u are able to find some stability and real world 'physical/material assests' through utilising your journey thus passed.... it is somethingi have been aspiring to of late too!

I havent seen much personal grievences remaining personal in a long time.. if only it were the way... i wholeheartedly agree that it is about the individuals involved int he experience coming together and clarifying it rather then opther folks eneries coming in and making it messy. However it seems folks arent able to really to 'burst the bubble of silence' without individual energy/ideology dscrepencies that have been 'aged' accordingly... dont ask me why but it just seems the way it is, im constantly having to deal with inter-relationship friction and its ungodly manfestation from the years past because folks wonder off feeling jilted/jaded and fester and mutate the experience and my/your/our role in it. what surprises me most is folks whom adamently go fishing for the slightest bit of 'ammo' against others in their own personal process and twist and misrepresent the communication to the point where it is made out that people whom are uite neutral or understanding of specific issues/topics are made out to be perpetrators and supporters of the 'witch hunt'.. to the point where the witch's confident is burnt not only by the hunters but by the witch themself. i think maybe in such cases it works both ways.... i believe both at earthfreak, and when we had some troubles at my place, it was uite clear i was pissed off with the situation and angry with you....i didnt need to tlk to you anymore then i did... my message was conveyed via my body language and our interactions and the energy between us following said experiences, really took the matter as far as i was willing to/capable of taking it given the context of the situation.. i Really feel in these instances that that was all that was needed, and given that i made peace with it almost over night, having known and supported you for so long, and knowing that: I was merely utilsing the examples of how, when ur all fired u and on a mission, (which seems to dominate the time we share) there comes time of intencity in that process where it appears that peoples toes are stepped on in your big footed oafish tryptamine missionary style. (and i see our interactions as perhaps a microcosm of that which u have been struggling with on the macro) thankfully i got big oafish tryptamine toes as well, just maybe not so much missionary, so ive never taken it to heart, nor held onto such experiences for too long. the comment RE ur smoking of dmt was aimed at whomever it was that said dmt use leads to over inflated ego/illusions of grandeur e.t.c.... and i thought ud smoked far less then 100 times.... as i remember a conversation about the fact id smoked very little but felt very little desire to smoek anymor ein that "it seems i have gotten the message for now and there is no need to re-visit the sapce once u 'get it') I remember when i first met you and for a while afterwards i was uite intimidated by you and your sense of self certainty seemed to over-ride my ability crticise you when i saw/felt something i didnt agree with. I can imagine this may well be the case with people who, havent had the opportunity to see you as a big fluffy cuddly (if not slightly crazy) jim henson bumble bee creation. yopur sense of determination, ur physical statutre and the pervading sense of self certainty must create a bit of a problem in communicating with folks. we live in crazy times that call for desperate measures, and of course i think ur extreme and intense and i think a lot of people would agree that their experiences with you have been at time spushing the limits of human experience.... i dont have a problem with that, its just not something id expect lots of folks to understand or be comfortable with... it took me a little while and at times yeah sure i need a break from it... but such is life and changing the world one particle at a time. and when/if u guys got cut down and were unable to continue your work, there would be a bunch of low lying ninja folks already tinkering away to make sure that the work continues.... so like i say "we all have our role" i jsut dont think that you saying that ur willing to go to jail, and expose it to the level where others are at a much higher risk, means u can walk around saying "if u dont do as i do your chicken shit and not standing up to your beliefs". Trust me when i say there are a lot of people doing a lot of work (in so many different fields) to bring about massive change... and we are all working towards this (some with little or more vigour, i think its cyclic personally). but yeah, it does seem a bit soap box/superiority complex to think that you know what is best for everyone and to declare that is people dont do as you and reptyle then we are 'chicken shits'. the work must go on, and how can it if everyone is in gail or prevented by various means from doing so. ? (and sorry but i dont think the martyre scenario uve been tlking about for years now is constructive and progressive.... unless everysingle person stood up at the same time.. which is what lots of folks are working towards!)

p.s builders trolleys, carpet and rope make moving heavy babies around uite feasible.... transportation via vehicle is a little more difficult lol

if ur not willing to put the plant in the ground, but want maximum growth, place makeshift tyre pot on worked soil, with a layer of roadbase/blue metal on the surface, and have the entire bottom of the 'pot' missing, so your planting into the soil but still with a pot around it. when i wnat to move just cut off roots by working soil around underneath tyre/pot. allowing for that root growth will give u maximum growth, and cutting the roots back for moving is less of a worry then having it root bound. just my way of doing it... have done it with cuttings and styrofoam boxes as well. (but just cut massive holes in the base not removed the entire base.

im getting me one of these!

best thign ive read from you in this post! spot on

san pedro or peyote without a doubt, smoking cigars made of the flowers, and chillums(With opium if in pain) leading up to my passing whilst sitting in somekind of stream/river/hotspring, drinking agwa and benedictine the whole way through, and smokng a combination of free base ketamine,dmt and crack (FrAcK) at that particular pre death moment. then coming out of the peak of the smoked experience jsut enough to smile and the travel in and out on the mescaline. (i know im gonna cop shit for this) but that would honestly be my ideal way to go out

hows that doubled headed split/roseii twin! those pics are phenomenal. love ot see what my validus and rosee look like so i can compare. to mee it looks liek a lto of the older plants could do with maintenance, cutting away scaled/scared limps and cultivating the fresh tips and offshoots and trading the central/scarred material. please let me know if u intend on/can organise the following. i have seen plants of similiar size (doubtfully age) be trimmed back one fifth. (and actually improve gigour and asthetic appeal not to mention the cultivation potential!)

where the fuck is this?.. that looks like somewhere i need to visit~! cool pics! awesome threaD PLANT LOVE

perhaps dunking the cacti flowers would be the way to go... just walking plant to plant dunking pollinating eually? and yeah my understanding was that when a plant flowers it is at its most 'ripe and expressive' . both the essences i made, the passiflora and the grandfather acacia werr used during ceremony with some very humbling and empowering feedback. as julian mentioend above, often i have used local crystal, seed pods, fresh flowers and fallen flowers in the essences (but never the phyllodes/ leaves in the case of passiflora) however i didnt dilute any of my essences down more then once from the mother essence... and often did 7, 11, 13 or 23 drops (heheh sorry julian i know u got the 7 thing going on, it jsut felt righ at the time like intuitive dosing)

Yeah i just got the vibe the consensus was that there was a presumtion of somekind of hidden agenda of profiteering from dmt. in my above post i too have bcome too personal in my dialogue, which is sort of what i was accusing you and sina of doing in many respects.. guess its the nature of the mode of communication that emotional aspects that would b delt with in a face to face interaction interfere with the clear communication. my recounts of experience are i guess a (microcosm) of what might be tlked about here in regards to the (macrocosm) of the community and the issues being raised. (i dunno.. maybe?) A powerfull determined and extremely effective tryptamine giant whos focus and determination sometime leads to some of us littler folks getting a bit mixed up in the wake. like when ur quietly fishing and a massive boat goes flying past you and you get all uppetty "those friggin wakeboarders, no respect. e.t.c." but really they are jsut doing what they are doing and because its whats right for them in that moment. (although personally i prefer the tranquility of sitting in a tiny with a beer and a couple of lines in the water catching up with old friends.... im jsut not made for wakeboarding or any such high octane intense full throttle adrenaline pumped activities) IF liken it to somekind of cartoon with julian being the shrek of trypamines, storming around throwing magick "get free potions" with other little elvin/make believe characters running round going "no no dont bump that, and , oh hell hes gone and broken the evil faeiry godmothers wand, now we are all in for it" e.t.c. Whats done is done so (j) im sorry for bringing up the past, im sure a lot of it is redundant now... i was jsut trying to communicate that you seem to have very extreme concepts and your actions match that, despite the environmental context at the time... and personally, and i guess for others also, it seems like your self certainty and 'drive' doesnt neccessarily allow for the rest of us, whom are of the same intention and goal and aspiration, but just not acting to the same degree of hyperspace acceleration... and in many cases it seems we are left with no other choise then to go with YOUR programme, even when it may not be exactly the right programme for us IN THAT PARTICULAR MOMENT... and sina, i never thought id cross words with you n a forum, its jsut that u know how friggin upset all dennis's villanising of me has made me, and also i know it was even worse with julian.. and i know u guys are bestest of pals... i just hoped that u were able to form your own perspective on it all and not get TOO personal (as u have been able to do so with me)

A foaf recently encountered some INCREDIBALLY potent cacti. The material was from the peruvian andes, and the only description available was 'san pedro'. The material was so potent that it was noticably active at 2.5g dry weight (green flesh only) and completely 'trippy' at 5g, with 14hrs of solid effects, and 32 hrs of noticable duration. Ive never ever encountered or heard of material existing at such a potency. Granted the mother plants were hundreds of years old... But still, at 5g dry weight, this material seems to be more potent then peyote. Has anyone ever heard of such potent cacti existing? Or should someone be buying me a ticket to peru so i can go and source seed? Also, foaf said the experience was amaizingly smooth, clear and visual, reminiscent of more visual 'mescaline' trips as opposed to the more energetic phenethylamine cocktails experienced with many bridgesii varients. Also, whilst it sounds too good to be true, the material actually tasted quite pleasant, more like green apples then the usual mouth turning bitter bombs.

from what i could tell u havent really smoked that much dmt have u julian? more just the ayahuasca? one thing id like to pipe up about is that: seems to be widespread throughout the community.. almost akin to some form of old school withhunt/superstition... mostly i feel fear projections/shadow resemblances. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> i have too many points of contention admiration and agreement with the main players in this conversation, and also love you all equally and dearly as you have enriched my lives and given me guidance and support more then most people could imagine... it is very hard for me to go through and pick out what i do and dont agree with from each of your posts.... however i will say this: i am quite humbled by the fearless attitude julian and reptyle have had towards confronting the 'powers that be', however it also frightens me.... its sort of like suicide/messianhic complex in that whilst u may feel/think it to be a completely selfless act, it is in many ways quite selfish and ego based (my claim to fame) in that it it risking and taking liberties with the wellbeing of those around you.... whom either might not be ready for such extremes, or jsut downright disagree with the approach to dealing with the situation. I think perhaps julian this has been one main concern that i have witnessed (and felt to some degree at specific times) that you are so sure of yourself, that you have it all figured out, that u are willing to take some pretty serious risks that dont ONLY effect you; therby taking liberties with other peoples space/energy/process. Whilst i know u have nothing but the best intentions, i feel it is up to every individual to decide when and if they are ready to take that 'next step'... and also just because u have reached a state of 'enlightenment' doesnt (in my perspoective) mean that other peoples states of consciousness are inferior and or less 'enlightened'.. We all have our paths to walk and roles to play, and i think what roughs most people up is that u seem somewhat unaware at times of other peoples process/state of being, to almost a point of neglect whereby u over-ride their path or neglect your influence on them, because you are convinced u know better, or simply unaware/emotionally detatched. This is a very rushed and scattered post, but yeah, its just what im feeling and thinking in the moment.. it has seemed at times that you get so caught up in your own personal process that u become unaware of the fragility of those around you or the need for subtlety and tact. (im going to use ariel having a pyschotic breakdown in our tent at earthfreq, and the night i dfound out my dad was in jail for delliberatly almost killing my brother as reference points here). I personally can see this in you because i recognise it as one of my own traights when i get too 'caught up in myself'. Also Sina, i think perhaps you are swayed a little too much by dennis and Torstens and maybe even my conversations with you on this matter, your posts seems far too personal given that from what i can tell you and julian have had minimal interactions. Ad i know how long and viciously dennis has played a part in villanising J, and also me. Ok thats my putting my head int he bucket of shit for now... but pleas eunderstand i totally agree with 99.9% of the points people are making here, just .1% of disagreement with some of the extremeties of how they are being communicated/represented and acted out. oh and T, your a stubborn grudge bearing bastard if ever i knew one, but ultimatly as i have said about julian i agree with most of what your saying it just seems to get a little too personal/gripey... it might just be the german/blunt way you communicate i dont know... and all three of you give the best hugs ever AMEN to that! and u know ive always been down for a book and doco! (p.s if u read back through your posts there is a bunch of self contradictory statements... yes dmt is awesome and should be available to everyone, but there are definatly risks and dangers involved in its use.. and yes it should be freely available but at the same time people need to work for it so they have the relevent understanding and knowledge to be able to work with it properly... and there is fuck all financial reciprocation for dmt production given the cost and man hours involved.... it has always been more of a self sacrafice for the cause... barely sustainaing ones lifestyle does not in my books count asd being a 'profiteer') ok enough brain dribble for now. plant lov.e

this would be my answer to those problems... hydro is pretty much green heroine, and from what ive heard recently commercial bush operations are more lucerative to some bikie gangs then meth. i was refferring specifically to non synthetic psychedelics/entheogens... in my experience the only REAL acid and md has come from conscious individuals whom know what they are doing. everythign else seems totally inferior and not worth the time or braincells (in my experience)