OpticalLight

Well there's no way I'm going to drop my life, I've just started living my life. Now I'm going to be selfish. I need to be selfish. Or I'll never live for me. I hadn't been talking to him for a couple of months and then he called me in the early hours of the morning one day, and he said that calling me was a last resort, and then he explained how he'd been feeling, and that members of his family had recently passed away and that his cousin was in a bad mental state. at the time i was feeling pretty shit myself because i couldn't sleep and was having withdrawals from coming off of some anti-depressants. he said that he hadn't been sleeping and that all he needed was for me to stay on the phone with him until he fell asleep. but he never did, and all i wanted to do was go to sleep myself. i was trying to remain normal on the phone but he kept talking to me for hours and hours and in the end i swore at him and told him that i couldn't take it anymore. and then he said that he was going to stop this and that i shouldn't contact him the reason that i was trying to remain normal is that my ex is very anti pharmaceutical drugs and i didn't want to admit to him that i had taken them. i did sent him a text informing him though that i was withdrawing from them that was it until a couple of days ago he send me an email about all the good things he appreciates about me and that i'm the centre of his life. then he sent more emails, then he sent me a text wanting to remove the don't call me ban. he called me today from a blocked number. i can't ignore every single blocked number ever, my home phone is a private number and my mum doesn't understand how to turn call blocking off per call. i just feel sick trying not to feel sick

i just got off the phone from a counsellor, i feel a lot more together now. i told the counsellor how I reacted and apparently, i did the right thing? i told the counsellor what i said to my ex about calling him selfish ect - and the counsellor said something along the lines of "that's about right, whew you're making me teary", lol. does he want me to suffer as he is suffering ... I'm guessing yes.

Justin Bieber, is most definitely a boy.

Happy Birthday Torsten !

Freebies = free lemony gingery minty goodness drink, a heavy bag of mulch and some free seeds... I saw that store with the 12 for $15 deal, but the free bag of mulch kinda limited me to what I could carry! I did pick up a wormwood plant and a mullein plant though. Yeah I also didn't make it there until the afternoon. I did go to the cooking a curry demonstration and tried the fish curry which was goood. There was also a very hot prawn curry which I wasn't game enough to try - (I accidentally bought some sort of pasta bake that was coated in chilli when I was in Germany and on a strict budget. I sat there for about half an hour eating it...), but I did take a photo of the prawn curry and then proceeded to laugh at the people who tried it when they were looking for water.

Did you end up going to this ThunderIdeal? I went on the Sunday, there was some good food, drinks and freebies to be had. I've put the peshwari naan on my to do list

Lol. Okay, so I'm going back to Centrelink tomorrow to talk to them about my back pay. I was in the line for centrelink a couple of weeks ago and someone lost it in the queue. I don't want to be "that" person, so I'm just going to go on a bit of a rant now, so I don't do it tomorrow. And I've already done this rant once today, but it does help to write this stuff down. I have given Centrelink a copy of my med cert three times. I photocopied the original. I gave them the original. They lost it on their system - the psychologist took a copy of the copy, promising that centrelink would leave me alone and that I wouldn't have to fill out any forms every two weeks. AND THEN, I had to go in there to fill out a form to get my pay because there was no medical cetificate on their system. SO THEY TOOK A PHOTOCOPY OF THE COPY AGAIN. Okay, maybe there is a problem with their documentation system!?!??! Three fucking times though. And what the fuck did they base their original calculations on!? I should most likely print out all of my bank statements again! And I have to go in there again because they fucked up by backpay. I have to go in there again. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. So from now on I will try and go to Centrelink on Tuesdays, Wednesdays or Thursdays; and in the mornings, when the probability of human error may be reduced? Okay. All done.

I don't know who follows the stock market here... If you don't, read this first. 'Human error' behind huge Dow Jones share market plunge This is probably a more credible source ---> Stock plunge raises alarm on algo trading Then watch this video. http://www.youtube.c...h?v=DE1WbyFQDSs

Thank you again for the cutting. And thank you for the de-spining and the wrapping! Last time I carried a cactus home it was very prickly.

And more music, just for the sake of music. Some new music and some newer music, (sorry no visuals). http://www.youtube.c...h?v=fKL2prSqDQI http://www.youtube.c...feature=related

Some new music and some newish music. http://www.youtube.c...h?v=ox_oko-oe60

I only have one cactus and he's/she's a Trichocereus pachanoi. You probably don't remember my plant collection GingaNinja - but were you after any cuttings?

Yes I've also frequented that cafe, I usually have to sit there for awhile after eating my meal before I can walk again! I like their food. I bought one of their books, (I mean I donated some money to them); and I read a shorter version of their book. Interesting belief system but not for me. That sounds like a tasty naan, I'll have to try it. I normally opt for the cheese and spinach naan.

Entertainment Program for Herb Awareness 2010 Guest Speakers Saturday 8th May 2010 9.30am – 10.30am Noel Burdette – For the Love of Spices 11.00am – 11.45am Colin Campbell – Promote his new book "Garden Talk" and do a Book Signing 12.00noon – 1.00pm Belinda Borowik – Cooking Demonstration 1.15pm – 2.15pm Sabine - Wildfoods 2.30pm – 3.30pm Stuart Glastonbury – "Cancer Bush and The Devil" – A story of two South African Medicinal Plants Sunday 9th May 2010 Mother's Day 9.30am – 10.30am Hap Happy – How to Build a Worm Farm 10.45am – 11.45am Scott Hinton – Planting a "Fibonacci" Herb Garden 12.00noon – 1.00pm Valerie – Cooking up a Curry! 1.15pm – 2.15pm Mark Beaumont – Herbs and Homeopathy 2.30pm – 3.15pm Debbie Aitcheson – How to Grow and Use Culinary Herbs 3.30pm Draw the raffle prizes Demonstration Area Saturday 8th May 2010 10.30am Making fresh Ricotta with Nigel Jackson – Malleea Cheese 11.45am Making a Tussie Mussie with Carolyn Kenyon – Society Member 1.00pm Potted Herbs and recycling with Debbie Aitcheson – President 2.15pm How to make a Lip Salve with Bettina Schmoll – Naturopath and Herbalist Sunday 9th May 2010 Mother's Day 10.30am How to Grow Sprouts! – Something enjoyable for our Children to do - Debbie Aitcheson - President 11.45am Propagation, Cuttings, Seeds and Division with Sandra Nanka – Mudbrick Cottage 1.00pm Making Herb Punches with Wendy Short – Society Secretary 2.15pm Making Herbal Teabags with Bettina Schmoll – Naturopath and Herbalis Herb%20Awareness%202010.pdf

$10 all you can eat and free refills of the lemon and ginger drink - can't go wrong. Although I will eat meat, at least I don't have to be reminded of all those slaughterhouse peta videos I watched. They opened up another one in Stones Corner - New Govinda's. Mmmm, and then there's Indian Kitchen at West End - "You can get 3 vegetarian curries on rice for $5.50 or 2 vegetarian and one meat curry for $7." A mango lassi and naan bread add to the cost of the meal, though I don't think that can he helped...

depends where you're located though

Ooo, I don't believe that's offered at the local restaurant...

Hmmm, I said fuck it. I was working full time at an insurance claims call centre. Now I'm paying my credit card bills with my overdraft; while I wait for Centrelink to wait for my previous employer to finalise their side of the paperwork... But you know, I'm still glad I did it. I'm actually more relieved now then before; even though I'm aware I'm going to have to jump back on the working bandwagon soon. * Should hopefully be a paid Centrelink customer by tomorrow. Called them up and they said the claim was approved yesterday and they tried to call me, but because it was approved; more forms were now required and the pay was cancelled. So I paid $30 to get to Centrelink, filled out the new form and I was told you'll get paid X amount tomorrow and we backdated your pay until April 6th - and I'm thinking gahhhhhh I just spent $30 to get here. Then they updated my bank account amounts and I was looking at the computer and I said, "Huh term deposit, whaaaaa"... Somewhere in the Centrelink system my loan account was recorded as a term deposit. Oops sorry, you'll actually be getting X amount. (Okay that's a lot better). Now I'm thinking hold on, were the initial calculations based on the fact they thought I had a term deposit all along... or has the mistake already been corrected. Ughh, I've lost count of how many times I've been into/called Centrelink. "And what about switching to Austudy"? - "That's a separate claim". (gahhhhh) "But you can do that yourself online". (sweet) "But it can take six weeks to get approved". (.).

And drinks, mango lassi; also . Making me hungry lol

There's some good content there too, layout and trying to search for things confuses me a bit though.

Sweet! Thank you

Soooooooooo good ^^

Anyone taken it yet? I'd like it please if not...

Hi Quilliam, thanking you. I wouldn't worry about the smell... I believe the local indian restaurant around here puts fenugreek in my fav curry - palak paneer. Yumm! Who wouldn't wanna smell like that!

I dunno, what happens to one person or even people, might not happen to another. People are different afterall. I think Huichol_Eyebrow mentions this particular interaction on a couple of other threads. In this specific case/s, anaphylaxis maybe? Here. There's quite a few threads, but this thread is also of interest. There's more info on the net in general, for starters... Erowid Maoi's info Erowid Ssri's info And seeing as you mentioned Zoloft, here too maybe. (Then again, those results would also be dependant on who participated in the study)... I think that if I ever were to try mushrooms; a decrease in visualisations, or non effectiveness; would piss me off. But then again someone who has been on SSRI's for awhile might decide too anyway... Still not sure if that's a good idea, on aropax in particular...