I took a massive overdose of benzos and opiates, saying this i didnt know what i was doing after the first 5 pills i took, apparently i took about 30 within a 12 or so hour period, then had some bright spark think morphine was a good idea, i wasn't in control at any point aside from remembering a few key points, one waking in hospital for the first time. i saw nothing heard nothing but had a profound feeling of peace, even for the week after i had been in hospital. i think if i had seen anything i wouldn't have been able to remeber it with the amount of benzos in my system. the only scary thing about death i find now is how your going to go, painfully, slowly etc, other than that death is peaceful and i am quite sure not the end of your existence, but god i hope im close to ascendancy because ive had enough of this over populated materialistic world. no im not suicidal even tho it may sound it