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I don't think that's necessary @Torsten Fuck me, I get upset that newbie wannabies want to go to the camp you set up specifically for people that couldn't make Christian's actual memorial for whatever reason and I'm crucified. Have fun. I just wanted to say goodbye to Christian. Whatever huh?

Thanks @Bigred - I tried. I'm fucking beyond upset that I can't go. Say a little prayer for me? (I'm not at all religious but you know, just... wish I could have been there to say my goodbyes.)

Get ready for a rant kids. First up Caleb... I definitely remember you from EGA last year - the first date coinciding with Christian's death. Yeah you were fun, quite the social butterfly but @Quasi-J ''the guy'' in your post has a fucking name. Don't be so disrespectful and treat this as some ordinary SAB camp to socialise. @Torsten organised this meet for people that couldn't attend Christian's memorial - whether financial or just because they didn't think they'd be welcome at his parent's organised memorial. IDGAF what your Vipassana bollocks 'told you' but this wasn't set up as a social event. I have been planning and looking forward (? looking forward - I know, strange) to a chance to say my goodbye to Christian. I loved him so much. I also was looking forward to catching up with friends I made at EGA - I don't know everyone's alias but I hope you all know who I mean - there's @OpticalLight, @watertrade, @Anodyne, @Halcyon Daze, @etherealdrifter, @El Presidente Hillbillios and a bunch of people I didn't know their SAB names (and don't want to name real names, I'll probably come back and edit this.) This is my second attempt at typing this, I wanted to say how much I appreciated sharxx101 (couldn't find your username, sorry mate) and others who have thrown in some extra towards T organising this event. Massive love to @StRaNgEdAyS and @El Presidente Hillbillios and @OpticalLight for your offers to help me get from Brisbane to T's property for the camp. I'm utterly crushed but I really don't feel I'd be welcome there - what with what I've heard of the gossip and shit.

Hey folks. Not sure where to start... I'd cut a piece of caapi accidentally (only a small stem) when trying to prune back an intrusive vine. I didn't think much of it and stuck it in a pot on my back verandah. I only noticed a week ago how damn healthy it looked given I'd forgotten putting it in soil or looking after it to be honest. It's flourishing and so healthy - I'll try to upload photos in the daytime. I'm interested to know if any SABers would like a cutting with roots - I just have the one at the moment as it was a spur of the moment thing to put it in a pot. Ideally I'd like to send these out (ready to go in the ground or a pot depending on your climate.) If you would like some caapi then all I would ask in return is that you send me a pre-addressed express envelope. WHY? It's so easy for me to do and I'd love to contribute to the SAB community whom I've been a part of for eighteen years (yikes!) and I've learned so much from. I honestly can't recall when I put that first small caapi stem in a pot - definitely no longer then the beginning of the year. So I don't know exactly how long it would take from taking a cutting and putting in soil before it forms roots and is flourishing. I'll do my upmost to not be such a freakin slacker in terms of visiting the forums. I'll take some photos of the rooted caapi stem tomorrow in daylight and post here.

I tried ringing his mum to say sorry... mesagebank. Probably the last person she wanted to speak to.

Sometime soon I hope to catch up with member's YT links. I'm sure you guys have great taste. Sorry/not sorry, another:

Too fucking apt and damn Kate Moss is gorgeous.

SAB FRIENDS! I cannot apologise enough, seriously. BEYOND slack. I feel fucking AWFUL. The caapi is still on offer, no $ or trade required (although I can never have enough lophs, just sayin'.) Honestly folks - enough to share with everyone. To be clear we're on the same page, I'm talking cuts of caapi that I can send to out for you to root (either in water or soil, I've done both easily) or give me a wee bit and I'll get some cuts into some soil for peeps who'd prefer rooted cuttings. Seriously if you could see the side of my house... the caapi is up past the guttering and well, I really do need to cut it back! There's probably a fair amount of decent thick vine for tea but I've already fallen well behind on just the cuts. Baby steps. I've just IDK, turned into a vampire. I honestly cannot sleep at night (gotta love NQ and the lack of green, where I live is called Brownsville for more then one reason I guess) so I sleep all day. I digress (other things on my mind.) Sincere apologies to everyone that has PM'd me. I WILL get to you all just not tonight... Hope you guys understand.

@Torsten - if you like I can contribute some kambo (there's enough on the stick I have for the whole of Mullumbimby and it's just well, sitting in the freezer.) I love that @sharxx101 has donated towards this event. I wish I could throw in extra - perhaps closer to the time. Fucking so many bills!!! Timing couldn't be worse but I'll get there somehow. Today would have been Christian's 39th birthday (for those who had him on FB, yes he purposefully put his DOB as 25/3, it's actually 26/3.) I would have been giving him shit about getting old (he was younger then me, always a fun contentious point.) Fucking onions! Who's cutting onions? Damnit...

OH MY GRACIOUS... Everyone I am SO sorry for not checking out my PMs to date etc. FARK, if I was any slacker, I'd be comatose! LOADS of caapi cuttings for anyone interested - whether you'd like them pre-rooted (just give me a few weeks) if you're in a cold climate or if not and would like a few cuttings sent out to root yourself, caapi is ridiculously hardy... well it seems to love the conditions in NQ and I DON'T water my plants. So this isn't really actually much more than an acknowledgement that I realise I've dropped the ball and I apologise I haven't replied to my messages just yet. I still want to upload a photo so you can see how that random cutting is now thriving. Thank you for your lovely comment @Xperiment - I have a couple of varieties of caapi dotted around the garden and definitely won't hurt my vine to cut some back! @El Presidente Hillbillios *sigh* I suppose we can come to some sort of arrangement Cheers all, again, I apologise to everyone who has messaged me. I WILL get around to reading your messages and responding. Seriously, loads of caapi cuttings, it's all good, it's just me. And somehow I've managed to go from bold to normal font or is it just me? Ok, time to crash. Night kids. Edit: words, couldn't be arsed fixing the font, sorry

This one is for Disco Stu - I don't know why (probably because he's the most prolific poster in this thread?) but yeah, I think YT vids and I think Disco Stu. After meeting him in person at EGA 2012 I think this song suits him (meant as a compliment Stu!!! Hope you like!)

Would love to see you and your lovely woman there Eth. (Sorry, not sure if she's on the forums or what her username is but I assume you know who I mean.) Unless you have like a harem of women. I feel so fortunate to have finally met you in IRL and the entire SAB crew that we were with. Such gorgeous souls.

Definitely there as I said T. For myself, flying down from NQ, it would be cheaper to fly into Brisbane rather than Coolangatta and make my way from BNE/GC to your property. I wish I could pitch in some money as the lovely @sharxx101 offered. Not on Messenger anymore so please message me via the forums if there is anything I can help with.

Thank you, I so needed the smiles.

I'll be there come heaven or hell (or whatever the saying is.) I love you @Torsten for organising this sweetheart. I was overseas for his service here in Nerang (& worried that I wouldn't be welcome.) Personally... I really need this. I haven't had a chance to say goodbye to Xtian nor reconcile it - it still seems so surreal. I loved him so much, I can't comprehend that he is no longer with us. Geezus, snot and tears everywhere. If there is ANYTHING that I can do, please let me know. I will do ANYTHING to see this happen and be there. It's so lovely to read other comments in this thread. @andyamine - Christian was such a beautiful soul... I'll STFU as bawling so hard. Torsten if you need ANYTHING I'm there for you. Much love for organising this. Love you still as much as I attempted to flirt with you while you were flirting with my then boyfriend in Cairns. Those were the days... I look forward to many more fun days gorgeous.

Thank you to all of the gorgeous people I met at EGA. I wish it was a monthly event. Of course many of you know of the loss of a beloved SAB member that weekend. I'm so grateful for being amongst such beautiful and compassionate souls when I learned of his passing. Again, heartfelt thanks and love to everyone there. I'm looking forward to seeing you all again soon.

Soooo... I can`t help but be inquisitive. I am SO looking forward to this EGA and especially meeting fellow SABers (many for the first time!) I really hope that there is a great turn out of SABers at EGA - I can't remember where I read it (here I think or if I just made it up tbh) but I recall maybe Ronnie (?) saying that if not for SAB, EGA wouldn't exist. (Bless your soul T.) Of course not obligatory, I'm just super excited and curious to know who's going to be at EGA2017! Honestly can't wait to put a face to the names from here. See you soon, you crazy kids!

Hi d00d! I'm pretty much always absent...

Amz I wish I could! I've only now grudgingly been given confirmation that someone is going to Jack-sit for the four nights I'll be away. Not to mention I wouldn't need any encouragement to get them little doggo sized Viking outfits.

This was playing in the background as I was reading this post.

Seriously? (Rhetorical, I know you know your shit.) The military can ID someone from their gait? Shit's fucked up. Cosmetic surgery and some hobbling maybe?