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No one has any of these seeds lying around? Damn

Do you get into a bit of plant tissue culture yourself? I've got a few cactus cultures I'll be splitting up soon and would be interested in trading for cultures of your own if so If thats not something you get into thats all good though. Bit too low on funds to get this at the moment

I would like to add that I've got loph seeds I could trade for some kratom seeds atm and a heap of cactus cuts

It only has to go to the government if it is found on public or government owned land, otherwise the owner of the land has ownership of the rock. However even if it is found on private land it cannot leave the country. Have checked all of that out pretty thoroughly. Hey Matt1208 can you flick me an email to [email protected]? Heaps easier for me to email pics and what not. Cheers

If anyone who one has any seeds to share I would freaking love a couple of them. Have wanted this plant for years and years. Thanks in advance if anyone can spare a few.

The title pretty much says it all. How do people get through each day without some kind of mind altering substances? Currently I don't know how. Life is tedious, boring and generally uninteresting. Doesn't matter what I do to try and change that I'm still just stuck in this rut. Probably the signs of a deeper underlying issue. But still. Maybe peoples idea as to what an enjoyable sober day is will help me get through this shit. Life is hard. Substances make it easier by numbing the pain of existence. I need to figure out a way to numb that pain without them because my sources are so fucking unreliable that it just causes more problems than it can ever help solve. Cheers Ace

All cool paradox. I get what you are saying and don't disagree with it all. It just doesn't exactly touch on the exact kind of issues I'm dealing with. I do intend to reply thoroughly to your posts though because I quite like what you are saying and where you are coming from.

Hey paradox. I appreciate the input. It just happens to go way off on a tangent that isn't at all what I'm trying to get at. I'll respond more thoroughly later in the week when I'm not so burnt out after a long day at work. Anodyne, I'll respond more thoroughly later in the week when I'm not half burnt out from a long day at work too.

@waterboy I think that what yo are trying to say that it is idiotic for someone who believes they have some level of intelligence to wish they were stupid because the life of a stupid person is wrought with difficulties. I think you are trying to hint towards intelligence being a gift rather than a curse and that an intelligent person would never wish to be stupid. But maybe I'm entirely wrong. Or maybe you don't understand how trivial I find life to be. Either way I don't really care. Your statements/comments were not constructive in the least and not helpful in the situation... And @responsible choice, I did have an avatar. For some reason it vanished and I don't really care for replacing it. It makes me stand out in anyways because I don't know of anyone else on here who has no avatar. So I won't bother changing it because it's pretty irrelevant anyways.

I'm glad you can read my mind bruh. Good job :D

Oh I totally get what you are saying. I just simply disagree with it. And I would imagine that the vast majority of folks on this forum get what I, and you, are saying. To walk away though is the easy way out lol. Each to their own I suppose.

Hey Glaukus. I've come very close to death myself, one occasion I'd dare say I'd already started to step through the doorway, but on others I was just in a situation where if things had gone slightly differently I'd be gone. And you are right, it does put life into perspective. To me it outlined how meaningless alot of it really is... Probably not the message that most would take from such an experience but I am so insignificant that it doesn't really matter.

@Alice – I keep as busy as is humanly possible too. It just isn’t enough to completely preoccupy myself. I definitely get what you mean about using the busy to simultaneously engage and disengage from life. It just isn’t quite effective enough for me. And there is no possibility of fitting more into my schedule without sacrificing sleep. Pretty much doing 60 hours of work a week at the moment and doing uni and working on home projects at the same time. Thanks for the input though. @Halcyon Daze – I don’t really have much I can respond with to that other than the fact that I’ve never really gotten a “natural high” from any kind of activity. Things just never really feel fulfilling or worthwhile. I get where you are coming from but the “natural high” so many people speak of is just completely illusive from my point of view. Cheers though. @Responsible Choice – I most definitely never feel guilty about taking illegal or legal substances as I don’t really care what most of society thinks. Who are they to decide what is fundamentally good or bad? Most are idiots to begin with that have no Idea about what they are talking about so their opinion doesn’t concern me. I do not watch TV, read newspapers or listen to radio all that often at all. Not sure how else I can easily avoid the media. I rarely listen to music that invokes too much emotion as well because I do not really have an outlet for any kind of emotion that may build up, especially in relation to anger or anything that could be remotely destructive. Caffeine I don’t go near very often but alcohol is pretty much the only thing I can touch at the moment (as I am likely to be drug tested for a new job in the coming month), because of this alcohol is my go to sedative at night at the moment. I don’t particularly enjoy it compared to weed, which is my usual go to, but it does the job at allowing me to fall asleep a lot easier. I most definitely do not drink the day away. As for the healthy relationship thing, I kind of just feel like they are shallow most of the time. You only feel close to those you are around frequently and for long duration. There is nothing inherently special about any person you are close to, just as there is not usually anything inherently bad about other people that you aren’t close to. And my needs of life are met but what is the point to that? So I can slowly exist throughout the next couple of decades, being a “productive member of society” and then fade out of existence leaving essentially no mark of any kind of meaning on the world? It’s fairly pointless and I think that is the crux of the problem. Don’t stress about being patronising. It’s all g. @Etherealdrifter – Relationships can most definitely be healthy and “good” while life is simultaneously dreary, mundane and boring. That’s essentially the issue. @Marty Achuma – Most definitely chronic. Something that has pretty much been on my mind since quite a young age. I tend to overthink things and always have. Winter for sure makes it worse because I bitterly hate the cold and it makes the mundane “chores” of life seem just that little bit worse. Lol. Pretty petty complaint but nonetheless it still affects my mood. Perhaps I do need one hell of a mindfuck of a trip to try and reorganise my “priorities” in life, but numbing emotions is most definitely an easy way to not care about them anymore. From my own experiences that is about all that anti-depressants usually do anyways and to the medical community that is a good thing as it allows you to be a productive member of society. I don’t disagree with productivity being good but what are the point of emotions if they tend to just get in the way of life anyways? I think one of the issues I have with sharing how I’m feeling with those around me is that I am a burden on them and they are most likely going through the same shit. Sharing it through the corroboree is a bit different as there is a little more anonymity and people can choose to read it or ignore it as they see fit. Plus you do get some real assholes on here occasionally (I can most definitely be one) that are more than willing to cut you down in a way that no close friend could. Sometimes that is very productive. Cheers for the advice and help. I get where you are coming from. I just haven’t been able to get so much help from doing those things (and don’t worry, the seasonal vs chronic thing is a pretty genuinely important question to ask relating to these types of things). @Wert – Although the substances are different I most definitely think that you would understand where I’m coming from, due to your own issues with alcohol (which can be one hell of a beast to deal with). Time and effort seem to be the key to all things. Hopefully the end destination is somewhat enjoyable and not just a state of further boredom and existential dread, albeit a “healthier” one for the body. @CrayZ – I really do think that almost all hobbies and activities, sometimes even work, are used to help people escape from the things they don’t want to confront in life. An example I often think of is when people on low to middle class incomes get bored when they have holidays. Are they genuinely unable to think of satisfying things to do or do they just simply lack the means to do the things they want? I tend to think it’s the latter and that is the situation that most of us are stuck in. @Distracted – You sir have found the best meme ever in regards to summarising my day to day life. Thank you. @Waterboy2.0 – Perhaps you just don’t know where I’m coming from. For example, have you seen many idiots out there that torment themselves over why they are doing the things they are doing? I haven’t, in fact it seems to be one of the hallmarks of a fool. Not knowing why, nor caring why, you are doing the things that you are doing in life. Additionally, wouldn’t it be good if one day I saw the stupidity behind the statement? That would be a sign that I’ve changed and things are progressing in a “good” way. Nice input though. Lol. @botanika – Well, it isn’t tedious or boring with substances. It is either different, and therefore interesting, or it is challenging, and therefore not boring. I’m definitely passionate about the things that I do, and people do notice that, as you point out. It doesn’t mean that I don’t find the rest of life to be boring. And one cannot simply do what they are passionate about 24/7 because of, you know, life. As for the “you only live once” statement: Thank fucking god for that. If I die and find out there is a “second life” I will not be there for long. Fuck doing all this shit over again. And it’s rad that you can find enjoyment and accomplishment in skiing and riding bikes. I do not get the same kind of accomplishment by simply going up and down hills. I’m glad that I come across as a lazy person to you. That must be the underlying root cause as to why I find life a tedious pain in the ass. Cheers bro. Much good input. @WiZKiD – I eat as healthy as I can afford to as often as I can afford to, I sleep as well as I can but that is very difficult at the moment because I used to use weed to help me get to bed. At least I have some sleeping tablets now that help. And My job is very physically demanding on the best of days, I walk very frequently and when possible I try and go hiking around different hilly terrain that is challenging. As for getting healthy, I most definitely have adopted that. I’ve managed to lose over 30 kgs of weight and keep it off since deciding to get out of my “live on Centrelink doing nothing” lifestyle. Healthiness most definitely makes life less difficult but I don’t find it to make life any more fulfilling. Unfortunately no matter how good I feel physically it does very little for my state of mind. Sorry to all for the long winded post. I do appreciate the input and I’ve been waiting long enough to be able to reply to multiple people at once, so that I don’t end up just messaging backwards and forwards to everyone every ten minutes or so. I really do understand where each of you are coming from and I have genuinely tried to implement almost everything that has been said. It just doesn’t help for me. I’ve also been to doctors and gone through the medication route, as I most definitely come across depressed when I voice how I feel about life, but every medicine I’ve tried numbs me to everything in life all the time. Which is fine for productivity but it doesn’t actually help the underlying problem and I’m productive enough as it is even when I’m unhappy. No amount of unhappiness or disappointment in life will stop me from doing what I have to do. I just simply don’t enjoy much of what I’m doing on a day to day basis, even if it’s something I’m passionate about. No idea why. Would love to hear from anyone else who has this same kind of issue. Cheers everyone.

I know what you're saying and I do all I can to keep myself as busy as possible. I'm working two jobs, maintaining a healthy relationship and I'm going to uni (even considering going on to do a second degree with double major in biology and chemistry) yet none of this is enough to distract me from life AND I'm able to do all of these things no matter how fucked up I am (ie high as all fuckery and still able to perform my jobs and do my uni without a hitch). I do get that busy-ness is good for keeping your mind off of the shittiness that is life yet I somehow seem to have this background thought process going on at all times that is analyzing all of the shit around me. It sucks. I honestly wish I were brain dead at times and struggling through life because at least then life would not seem so tedious as it would be a challenge.

Pretty sure there are two different species of acacia here (maybe three). Two are currently flowering and one just finished flowering. 2 have leaves that are about 10ish cm long and one with leaves maybe 20cm long and thinner. Hope the photos are useful. If anything else is needed let me know. Found in Newcastle region nsw

Oh sweet! A super kabuto cross grafted. Can we see some pics of it? My hands up for sick astro hybrids third in line too!

They are good quality from the store in that ebay link.

Adding H2O2 before you pressure cook it will break it all down. It decomposes with heat or with enough light. More heat leads to faster decomposition. I'm not sure if it will break down 100% of it though. I think there are H2O2 test strips you can get too. May be worthwhile to see if there is still some left over.

I'd like to tear this to pieces but honestly I have better things to do with my time atm, and no where near enough time to do them. Just putting this comment here so that way people don't immediately jump on the pseudoscience bandwagon because it sounds okay. Put simply. He is wrong. Cheers

Something that I have been pondering for a while now and that has been keeping me occupied in any downtime I have. I wonder, how much responsibility is put upon a persons shoulders if they embrace, realize and accept that they themselves have the ability to shape the paths of their own lives? I see so many people that seem to live far more peaceful and content lives than myself whom are spiritual and have "faith" that everything will be okay. I can't embrace this attitude of believing in an ultimate path for people, destiny, fate or whatever you may want to call it. I have no problems with these beliefs but I can't see the logic in them whatsoever and because of this cannot embrace them personally. But back to the topic of wonder. I wonder if many faiths and belief systems have come about due to people being unable to cope with the indirect effect of their actions. I do not say this in the sense of "oh no i showed up late to a party which upset such and such" I'm more meaning about those circumstances where you think "wow... what are the chances of that occuring." I do wonder if these seemingly profound, positive or negative, yet indirect consequences of individuals actions lead to the embracing of belief systems etc. I'm certain there would be other more profound factors coming into play as well but I believe that every person comes across a myriad of circumstances in which they sit back and wonder "wow. How could that possibly have happened?" So that's one little rambling thought. TLDR: Is it easier to accept that the far reaching and long term consequences of your actions are orchestrated by a higher being than it is to accept that every thing you do has consequences beyond which you could comprehend at the time of taking such action?

INTP also and I could easily say the same of wert and yourself

I think that is wonderful! Why not take off all of that additional social cognition so you can free your brain up to focus on things that are more useful/productive. Then again that's just coming from my incredibly anti social perspective whereby I think that much social interaction is rather tedious and a waste of cognitive effort. It would also make picking people up easier eventually I'd imagine too. "Pay an extra $xx/mth for the special addition suave mode" lols

Would be cool to get seeds like this down in vitro if they ever pop up again. Way higher chance of surviving even if there are some kind of genetic defects going on causing the high mortality rates. If they do pop up again let me know and I'll get them in vitro.